The Idealistic Takahina

Lately, I realised on my motives in schooling and the things which I'm learning in school. The motive? Nothing.

In precise, the more I study the more I realise how distant the A'level subjects that I'm taking relates to the kind of things I love to do, except for maybe GP as GP can improve on my language and econs since I can learn more of business from there. Also, it's now then I realised that practically nothing in this world can be ideal to everybody. Why isn't it ideal? It's due to the presence of society.

What I want to pursue in the future, I feel will be something like drumming, writing, or perhaps even to just open a shop selling Jap related stuff including Hentai as Hentai will be exclusive in Singapore. However, presently the subjects which I'm studying, like physics, is totally useless for me... in the current situation anyway lah. Then if since I don't really have the interest in physics, why did I take in the first place? Society.

I've been injected with the opinion of entering JC, Uni, blah. The standard way lah, so in other words the stuff which I'm studying now is to pave my road for the university. But then, I don't think that what I'm studying in now or future will truly help me in my ideals. This happens not only to me, but I think, to the whole society as well.

Nobody can truly obtain their ideal goals, mainly due to society constraints. Few will have the courage to actually enter a field which is totally new and away from the mainstream like OniShinobi who pursue computer visual design and something of sorts. Few will have the chance to pursue on their musical talents since there isn't much chance of doing such and the only way we have is just plain old Yamaha. Most of this things, we have to go overseas.

So in the end it remains very fucked up. Why are we stuck in a way we cannot fully pursue our talents or interest? For example, there is not even a CCA which I enjoy in TPJC. Mid last year i thought I will finally have a CCA I can go and have fun. But heck this year the school just fucking close up that CCA. So now I'm CCAless and I don't even care about looking for any others since I have interest in none of it!

What the government sees on is results that can directly benefit the whole fucking country. They go and implement on ways in which the whole fucking country can benefit from it and they do it in their so-called public interest. Yes, go ahead and prevent any imports of porn or sexual related things, now even some 18 years old also don't even know what the fuck a dildo is. Heck, I even doubt many people heard of a shit called fleshlight. Nabei I'm gonna get myself one to show the noobs what it is.

The fact is that in the past, indeed such measures must be implemented to continue and further the growth of the society. I don't care what Lee Kwan Yew does at that time, I'm not born yet after all. But now, Singapore should be more open and give more power to the related associations to perform their tasks. Give more power to the people. This applies to schools as well.

I'm thinking, why must the school prohibit what students do? We want a Japanese Cultural Club, so just let us get it! When JC1s want to be together in a class, just let us be together lah! Why seperate us into different class with grade differences? It's not like it'll kill you. Tamade. You think you seperate us into different class with grades we won't know ar.

Till now one of the biggest mysteries I have is that why am I in a totally different class with Benjamin and Priscilla even though we have subjects and school backgrounds. Now then I realise, it's due to the fucking o level grades we get. In every class, they will add in some good students and some moderate students for the sake of the good students helping the moderate students. Then behind every class, there is a limit of the moderate students' grade. Like in my class it's around... 14 including all CCA pts. But perhaps in other class, they limit the grade to be like 12 or 13 and add in some students of around 9 pts and you get a class. That's imo how they mostly seperate us, of course I have not included other factors such as Orientation group and so. So now, i think it's just because i'm inferior that's why I'm not in your class hor. But then, i'm perfectly happy with my class now. The whole class never do GP homework, superb.

The most fucking and infuritating thing bout this society and the idealism behind what each of us wants is that society often at times is unable to provide the ideal life we want. If not, most of our ideals are covered or hidden with propaganda unwittingly transfered from our parents and teachers. I'm one such person. However, it's not like I will regret what I do now, just treat whatever things you're doing now as a game called Shinobi. Maths question? Easy. Those simple questions are just little enemy that can be defeated with just few slashes. Those hard questions will be the boss which will make you pek chiek. Then if those hard questions are still rather simple, it means that these questions are like the bosses in stage 1 and stage 2. Still handable. If it makes you frustrated to the extent you throw the whole book out of the window, then it's like the last boss in Shinobi whereby I almost throw the whole controller out of the window.

This society is fucked up.

Why?

Cause people are fucked up.