The Re-Furnishing Takahina

Today, I finally managed to break down a bulk of my books, files from my old room down to my new room. Then went through a lot a lot of stuff which I wrote before in the past, such as my econs essay, Gp essay, maths paper and even a Chinese Compo.

All the mindmaps, compo, outlines, focus, blah blah made me laugh and recall many things which I had done in the past.

My JC life wasn't bad. Not exciting, not angsty, not painful. Just normally normal.

Then I thought through a lot of the stuff which I went through particularly in the mental side.

I read through some of my essays, and I realised on how pesismistic I was in the past. Actually, I think I still am but then I changed a lot from before.

For example one thing I wrote about Education,

"Students are mainly concerned about their studies and the future prospects in which it'll give them. Moral education and civil education aren't really in their agenda of studying and the education system only serves to prove so with Civics and Moral Education being thrown as almost being redundant nowadays by students and parents alike. Teacher could only be half hearted in teaching such."

My thinking has changed somewhat a little. But still didn't divert too far.

My angst and fury with the society was at it's peak during the JC years. Now I can only look over it and laugh. Maybe it's cause I have given up in my personal effort of trying to get people to change.

All I need is for myself to change. That'll be enough.

I relook at myself now. What has differed? Actually quite a lot.

I'm more daring now.
I'm more optimistic... albeit just a little.
I'm more confident now.
I have an aim in life.
I don't feel anger or emotions towards the society, only pity.
I don't care about what other people says, I do what I like.
I'm not as conservative as before.
I'm still as emo as ever. Maybe even more.

Life has gotten a little more interesting don't you think?

However, I think more too now. About my future. I don't think I'm self centered now as before. Love and Romance can wait, for me they are the main factors of my emo-ness which still comes on a regular basis that is rather frequent and dependant on certain people in my life. Working in NS is second.

My future, my dreams.

I have my dreams, but to do that I have to secure my future. I was self centered enough in the past to think that dreams and future can be one. Reality is starting to prove me wrong and I think I'm mature enough to be aware of that.

I just discussed a lot on "future" with someone who helped in the current design of my room. And I gained quite a lot of insights.

I'll be freaking rich in the future. And my dreams will be fulfilled.

Looks like not only my room got re-furnished.

I got re-furnished nicely as well.

Random Thoughts 3: Money

I think.

I need more money.

No, not, think. It's:

"I need money."

Every month I will owe people money towards the end. Bah, hate it. And I keep on pondering where I spend it on... I realised.

I don't know.

WTF.

Now Matsu Takako's new cd is out, cost $70+. I DEFINITELY NEED MONEY.

Maybe there should be a Takahina's Charity Fund. Yeah.

Random Thought 2: 羞恥心

I don't know. But I have a sense of hair standing while I'm watching this video. Imagine Superband, a band performing this. HOMG.

I'll really love the band who play this in Superband, for all you know I think I'll make my first phone call donation to that band in Superband.

Then there's Perfume.



Whom I feel, is a much better dance band. At least the music doesn't make your hair stand and screams of Power Ranger. And Perfume has been out there for quite some time. Not bad. See their live and it's just all rehearsed, really damn amazing and scary at the same time. And electropop, it's the first time I heard something like this. HOMG. Really not too bad. And their music is quite nice.

But when Perfume has a Sense of Shame...



Jin Seiiiii

Jin Seiiiii

Jin Seiiii~~~~

Shuuu Chiiii Siiinnn Mote!!
Shuuu Chiiii Siiinnn Mote!!
Shuuu Chiiii Siiinnn Moteee~

Don't Mind Don't Mind Don't Mind Don't Mind, ore tachi wa...

zomg...

The Story Telling Takahina

Takahina today... have a story to tell. At the same time, would like readers to actually ponder about it.

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*All names are anonymous and have no link to whoever whatsoever*



Taka is a very average youngster. He spends average and most of the time, fully spends up his whole pay which comes monthly. He doesn't earn much, just enough to support himself and his girlfriend, Saeko who loves him very much.

However, Taka wants more. Taka has a secret. Taka doesn't really love Saeko as much, he does like Seako, but probably not as much as what Saeko thinks. The problem about Saeko is that she resides in a lower caste, CASTE 1. Meaning she has much lower education level, many family problems, many financial problems while Taka is in CASTE 2. A very naive girl one could say. She trust Taka very much but at the same time, she knows that Taka could leave anytime. But still, she tries her very best in the relationship. She knows due to the caste level, the society could never accept their relationship, and maybe even Taka himself will eventually be unable to accept it.

But anyways, it doesn't matter that much to Taka. Cause Taka is feeling alright with her now. Taka's focus isn't on Saeko, but more on how to advance to the higher level caste, like CASTE 3 and CASTE 4. Taka knows that to be able to enter the realm of the higher caste, he needs money. He needs power. Also, the girl of Taka's dreams, Ayako resides in probably CASTE 3 or CASTE 4 cause he seldoms get to see anyone of such stature. Intelligent, highly educated, gorgeous and definitely high in maintenance.

Now enter Takasuke, another person who is somewhat related to Taka. He frequently meets Taka and have discussions about the future.

Takasuke is one on the higher caste, CASTE 3. Naturally he wishes to go up to CASTE 4 and is willing to bring Taka along with him. He also has problems.

Takasuke is a little on the opposite side of Taka. Takasuke doesn't really want girls like Ayako, of course he doesn't mind, but he just wants a relationship similiar to that of Saeko and Taka. A girl's full attention and love. He has got too many relationships but it all just ended with the girl liking him for his caste level.

On this faithful day, Taka and Takasuke discussed on Ayako.

Is it that girls on a higher caste like Ayako somehow put lesser emphasis on the relationship itself and prefer to go for caste level?

Is it that girls on a lower caste like Saeko are able to devote fully on the thought of romance rather than caste level?

Is it that guys who are on the lower caste like Taka goes for girls of higher caste?

Is it that guys like Takasuke who resides in higher caste, goes for the purity of relationship? Rather than higher caste girls like Ayako?

Taka and Takasuke got depressed.

Somehow it seems that no matter what, the way through everything is still obtaining a higher caste.

"Best is getting a CASTE 4" Taka says. "A CASTE 4 means not needing to worry about anything financially. All you crave for is just looking for love, and intelligent presentable girls like Ayako."

"Wrong!" Takasuke says. "So what if you're at CASTE 4? The girls whom flocks to you are those without real love. They love you for your money. There is no true relationship. Girls like Saeko are like super big diamond gems in the higher caste."

"But if you don't like the girl? Then how? What if you only like girls in the higher caste?" Taka rebutts.

However, Takasuke attacks back rather irritatingly, "Many is just a false front, Ayako will eventually flock to another guy who is like in CASTE 5 or even CASTE 6. They can't be satisfied and have no love whatsoever."

Taka by this time, is rather disappointed to hear such stuff. He thought, is it true that Ayako is such a person? Is money really that important?

Takasuke, noticing that change of expression in Taka, tries to comfort him, "Taka you see, this world is messy, what the lower caste craves for is in the higher caste, but what the higher caste craves for is in the lower caste."

Taka however, still finds it unreasonable.

At this junction however, Saeko suddenly called Taka. Taka, instead of picking up the call, just shuts it off.

"What's that for?" Takasuke asked.

"I don't know... my mind is in a state of mess now. Should I continue to strive for Ayako, or stick onto Saeko... someone whom I won't like for long?"

Takasuke then replied, "Continue to go for CASTE 3, I believe you can do it. But ignore Ayako."

"But I can't! I love her so much!" Taka snaps back.

"You have Saeko! What the hell are you thinking about?!" Takasuke shouts back.

"ARGH I DON'T KNOW!!"

What should Taka do? At the same time what should Takasuke do? Saeko and Ayako, exactly what is so different about them that makes Taka feels so frustrated?

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*End of Story*

Ponder about it guys. :)

Random Thought 1: War

Hmmm suddenly had a touch of inspire coming to me.

What if Singapore had a war.

Which side would you join? Singapore or the opposition?

Now I suddenly ponder on it... and I think..

Hmmmmm....

You?