I Officially Hate My Job.
Yes.
Even though there are tons of perks in it, there's also tons of shit in it. To be fair, I'll name out the perks.
1. Near to my house, it's just 10mins walk away.
2. Low volume of customers, meaning very free and very low stress level.
3. Easy job to handle. The few things you have to manage regularly are relatively easy.
4. It's a 'respectable' local bank, so it looks good on the resume.
Now, the shit.
1. Everyone is free, meaning people will be blabbering their big bad mouth.
2. Low level entry job, meaning no one gives you any form of proper respect.
3. Being a local Chinese bank, the systems runs in a very "hierarchy" system. Everything must go through a lot of red tape and the bosses are as stingy as a Chinese salesman.
I give you best discount, 50c discount. You can't get it anywhere else.
4. Pay is low, note point 3.
5. Everyone pretends, even my supervisor.
6. Lack of proper training. You go through on-job training, but ultimately you only know things related in your own job scope. Nothing else. So essentially you're not gonna know anything of use for ur future job.
7. You feel dispensable. Anytime people can just replace you and your supervisor won't protect you even though they said they will. Note pt 5.
8. You feel too free, but you can't do your own stuff cause people are "watching" you. If they spot you, they'll just report you, even though you have done your job already. So ultimately you have to act busy. Something which I absolutely hate.
Let me rant, initially I was very excited about the job. Finally I can be like a working adult full of responsibilities and performing them. Emails come in asking me and I can confidently answer them about it. But that's far beyond what is happening right now. Let me just state it right from the start.
I searched for a job fast even before my last exams because I don't want to waste time. I know I'm a person with high inertia; you get me started I can keep going, you let me cool down my engine don't expect me to start anytime soon. So I got my job shortly after my exams finished. I sacrificed holiday trips and many other events just to make it for the interviews and stuff, in the process upsetting quite a few people I can imagine, but nonetheless I made my choice.
Then this interview at Tampines came in via Recruit Express. To me I didn't mind a low pay at that time cause I was desperate. Plus this job is just 10 mins walk away! Just imagine the amount of transport I can save up. It'll be comparable to a 2.5k job which is standard for most fresh grads. I accepted the job, went through a whole bunch of things in preparation for it.
Got to know that this job is about Options. Just nice, I learned options in University, something that I can use my expertise on.
So I started work. First few week is what they call a honeymoon period. You practically do nothing, just waiting the whole day. You try to study the procedures and everything but reading is not as efficient as doing it. You try to understand the product, which I did eventually. You know margin, you know the systems behind it, you learn the history.
At this point I was, "Well it's not too bad. People are quite friendly here and the mood is relaxed. Looks like I'll like it here." Plus I see my supervisor so busy all the damn time so I felt that once I'm qualified, I'll be almost as busy as him with a bit of free time available, which is just nice for me as I needed some time to do my own organizing and planning for my own life.
Go play some games, you'll get more lives.
But gradually, after a month or 2. It felt different already. I find a lot of accusations towards me even though I have done my job. I find myself doing a lot of mundane stuff which is not necessary for the operations of the job. I find myself getting looked upon by people even though they say things until it's so nice and act friendly in front of you. I find myself worried about my own job position when there's a new staff coming in. The insecurity and the lack of value in my own work, made me feel that this job is no better than just a student job.
At the same time, thanks to my job coming from Recruit Express, what they told me initially was this job will be contract at first like a probation period, after that you'll be recruited in. What I didn't know is that I'm literally a "temp-staff". Under my email, it writes "non-staff". Any company updates doesn't go to me, it has to be forwarded to me via my supervisor.
Eh... isn't it supposed to be just probation period? How come I'm now like a temp-staff? Due to my status being "non-staff", I can't access to a lot of systems, meaning I can't value-add to my supervisor. He'll be looking around for more "proper" staff eventually.
Gradually a few days later he asked if I'm willing to continue to work in the company after I finish my contract, "Woon Han, I want to know how you feel, in that I don't want to continue looking around for more staff cause I'm tired of labour turnover and retraining them. Would you still want to continue in this position?"
Then I said, "I thought I'm supposed to continue unless you guys don't want me?"
Meaning... no. I'm not supposed to continue. If I want to I have to re-apply again and go through the whole bullshit process.
Haha you suck big time!
Then from there I started to know how lowly paid I am and how "dis-benefitted" I am. Kinda sucks to hear that you're colleagues earn around $600-$700 more than you doing the same shit job.Thanks hor Recruit Express.
Next, working in Settlement (back end) means that you're a cost. The company does not treat you kindly or the same as with those front end. Because you cost them their profits. Being a stingy Chinese Bank, they do not update their systems even though it's centuries outdated. Anytime they will cut you up and transfer the department overseas for cheaper cost. I mean working in back-end itself means that you're dispensable. Plus the job I'm doing has low volume of customers, added to the fact that I'm a non-staff and just a fresh grad and also the youngest in the whole back-end department, I'm the MOST DISPENSABLE OUT OF THE DISPENSABLE.
I'M THE MOST FREAKING DISPENSABLE PERSON IN MY BANK!
I should have a cameo role in this show.
No wonder I'm treated with almost no respect, people don't really care about what I do, hold no true responsibilities (meaning the job I do can be easily substituted) and the back-end department being relatively quite free, anytime I can get reported for skiving on the job. Oh yes I'm skiving by blogging bout you jerk-asses.
Recently my conduct got worse, I guess you can say my engine has slowed down. My conduct is not on the ball, I go to work late, take extended breaks, can't help but doze off a bit while staring into space when using computer etc. However I have to support 1 thing, no matter how much I 'skive', my work always get completed on time without me needing to do OT. That shows something.
I'm a capable person and I can spend all ounce of my strength to get things done. Ask my Uni Project mates and they know how I can rush a whole night, completing one rough diamond to a good cut.
My subordinates call me da boss for a reason.
The way I do stuff is not like the conventional Singapore sometimes. The more rush something is, the more I take it in my stride to finish it, kinda like how artists and Manga-ka (manga drawers) works. You rush them, they will seemingly appear uncaring, but then next day you see the work done. I try to keep my cool when doing stuff and don't appear nervous although sometimes I do lose my cool.
To me, it doesn't matter how you do your job, as long as you manage to finish it properly, and that's what I do for my work. My 'conducts' doesn't really matter because I have ALREADY finished my job. Yet rumors still fly around like no ones business about my poor conduct. Fine, UOB.
PLEASE GIVE ME MORE FUCKING JOB THEN! MAKE ME SO EFFING BUSY THERE WON'T BE TIME FOR YOU TO EVEN COMPLAIN ABOUT MY CONDUCT!
I dozed off in office, because simply, there's nothing to do. And when I do doze off it's not because I intentionally want to sleep, but I can't help it. It's too BORING. And wait here's more... it's not just me!
There are others who do nothing as well whole day in the office. Openly activate Pinball and play like no one's business. Yet no one complains about him. Why? Because he's an IT support tech and he's of a somewhat senior position. So what is the between me and him?
He's indispensable cause of his IT knowledge while I'm expendables like a temp-staff that's why. I'm like freaking Arnold 杀死那个.
The Singaporeans call me 杀死那个 for a reason.
People don't respect me here even if I do my job well. I slack as much as everyone around but I'm the only one who gets the complain. Why? I'm expendable that's why!
My department in Tampines overall only got 2 person, my supervisor and me. When my supervisor is out teaching staff in the other branch at Tanjong Pagar, I'm the only one left alone, settling my own meals. Lonely I tell you lonely.
I'm a kon and I'm lonely. So I sing a song with chipmunks voice despite being black and badass.
Initially I decided that I'll continue on the job until end of 2013 provided that I get a suitable pay-rise to the level comparable to everyone and I become known as a proper Settlement Officer, not some "non-staff" bullshit. Fucking hell if I'm a non-staff why the fuck am I still in the company for? If I don't get those condition, I won't continue.
Now I'm thinking, even if they give me those conditions, I don't want to stay anymore. I didn't sign up for a shit job.
I didn't sign up for this fuckery.
And I dare to write all of this shit here, because I have no friends in FB or anything and they won't find it, neither would they care. I can tell you none of them up till now still knows how to spell my name correctly. "Choon Won Han" MY ASS!
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Nice One!!!
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