The Forgotten Takahina

This is like a continuation into the "Used/Help" factor mentioned.

Am I forgotten? To friends currently around me, don't think so, Rurouni, Uni-clique, people in my work place etc etc, for now I won't be forgotten. But what about in the future?

One thing which Takahina openly admits, is that I take a note to whom I remember, who I don't remember, who remembers me, and those who don't remember me. Being vain or something, call it whatever you want.

And my upcoming birthday, is normally one of the best indicators as to whether people still remember me or not.

Takahina confesses, he has a lousy memory. In fact my memory is pathetic, I can't remember what my friends/brothers said, I can't remember any form of theory which others seem to be able to record in their mind so well. How I got past JC and now uni is quite a mystery to me. I can only remember things through one way, and it's experience.

Thus so, I always forget things like people's birthday, except for people really close to me.

If you notice, Takahina always has this "notebook" along with me, because it's one of Takahina's brain, without it I'm perpetually like an old man. I record birthdays of people I care inside, or birthdays of people within proximity to me.

So, enough about Takahina being able to remember people or not. The next thing is, is people able to remember me after things happened? Whether we're not in proximity or not? On a side note, Takahina expects the people of those he had noted in his notebook to remember his birthday, so if those people didn't like even greet Takahina on that day, it'll be disappointing to him and rest assured your name won't be in there the next year, unless you're within my physical proximity in some sense.

Takahina has quite a huge amount of names in his notebook by the way...

Anyways, whatever about people who forget about people? I mean I forget, but I make the effort to remember your stuff in my notebook. How about those people?

That is the one thing to being a friend. You make so much friends in your lifetime you aren't able to remember them all, you only keep a few ones close by your side and ignore the rest eventually as time goes by.

So easy to say, true friends stay under a format of:

- Friends you remember
- Friends close to your environment

Forgotten friends/Can be forgotten friends stay under a format of:

- Once friends close to your environment but lost contact, don't find the need to get back in contact

- Friends whom have "use" to you, but you don't really bother to include them into your lifestyle

At least in my own Takahinic way, I try to remember everyone to the best context possible, if I can't or don't, I'm sorry but please do know that I didn't mean to forget you. If I didn't like you, I won't even bother replying you at all.

But what about you? Have you forgotten about people? Have you recalled any friends and forgetting about them whole eventually, despite that person still remembering you?

It kinda sucks doesn't it, when you suddenly get a message/present from a long time ago friend, whom you even forget about their presence. You totally forget about their birthday and yet that person still bothered to send you a gift for your birthday, at least a greeting, initiated without any prompt.

Rather than saying that a person just wanna makes use of you, why not say that everyone makes use of everyone? It's just the appreciation anyone has for you after that differs in level, depending on how they look into you and your application into their life, the pain and disappointment which arises after helping a person is that the person simply forgets your goodwill/kindness/friendship/companionship in the future. Even after that you try to be a little more memorable, you'll still be just a shadow, beneath everything else, yet undisappearable and indispensable. You will always have some use to that person, for networking sake in business terms.

Thanks for facebook and the various internet purposes, at least it's less obvious now you'll be forgotten, since when your friend has a birthday, you can just simply pop in their wall and type:

"Yo, Happy Birthday dude! Have a great one!"

Look at the many birthday greetings, out of 10, at least 1 will be like this of some sorts, is it sincere or not? No one knows, I mean at least use more originality when greeting someone, like my Rurouni's, always so brilliant at it. So what about those people without internet/facebook/friendster/MSN... whatever there is now? Good luck to term, their "Clientele"/network base is smaller by a big margin. Lesser amount of people for you to make use of.

So what has this got to do about being used? Nothing much actually, it just kinda shows your position in that somebody's heart and how you can never get too much into it.

If I wanna go deeper, I can keep on trying, whether that person opens up or not is another thing. Some people have a small threshold only, to only allow that little bit of people into their life, if they wanna include anymore into their life, they need to get rid some already in their life. At the age of 20 onwards, probably the threshold should be full for a person with a small threshold.

Some of you guys may say I'm a bitter person for writing this. In fact I am, I have never liked being forgotten at all in my life, I mean who likes it? Just that I'm very honest with it in my blog.

I don't mind being made used of, cause I'll be making use of someone some other time eventually, what goes around comes around. But it's the realization of knowing you have been forgotten, of knowing they don't really care enough about you to include you in their threshold despite them being in your own threshold and your efforts done for them. That is the thing that hurts.

The thing about know that you have a minimal and dismissible threshold for including others, this in itself is...

Deplorable.

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Song Recommendation:

Shiki no Uta - Minmi



I have been listening to this song all the while as I was typing this post. Very smooth and emotional feel presented in the song. Also one of the few R&B/Hip Hop music which I seriously like.