The Re-Blogging Takahina - 2012 Week 23

Here I am sitting at the office table of my 1 week old new job, re-starting my blog. Now that I think of it, it's quite amazing how someone like me who used to blog weekly can all of a sudden stopped blogging altogether.

It's amazingly.... easy. And that scares me, outright.

I had a little ambition in the past and that is to have my blog achieve high viewership standards, so as to enable possible advertisements and earning meager income from it. The financial course I attended at Adam Khoo mentioned before, by doing something that you enjoy regularly and being able to earn income from it, it makes being financially secure so much more easy.

True enough. I enjoy blogging and if every blogpost I write earns me as little as even 10 cents, I'll be continuously spending time and writing all the way till now. Now I know why there are gamers who endlessly play MMORPG grinding their way to financial freedom. Even right now I last heard from one of my brothers, Stacey that people are starting to sell items in Diablo 3. Diablo 3 just got released a few weeks ago and people are starting to earn their $70 back. The best thing is? They enjoy it!

How about me? Sitting at my desk writing a blog after almost a year because I have nothing to do. Well at least for now I have nothing to do because my system isn't exactly ready for me to use. If it's up, who knows how busy I can get.

So, what does blogging mean to me?

A means of earning money? I had thought of coming up with a food review blog, hence you see me taking so many pictures of food now and then. But then it hasn't really come up anyways after several oppositions from several friends (I'm referring to you Serene har har har).

A means of expressing myself? Maybe, I seem to be able to express myself explicitly about many issues for the past few years such as the GE 2011. But then I found it quite risky to let everyone know what I think about issues openly, imagine if I say I support PAP, the next thing I know I may be on hardwarezone.com's forum. You can ask me and I'll answer truthfully, but I'm starting to see there's no point in advertising what I feel about things.

So what is it exactly? I'm not too sure myself too now since I can so easily forgo it for the past year.

Lazy Takahina... Lazy.

To say that I haven't blogged because school is busy is an excuse. To say that it's due to my commitments it an excuse. It's impossible I can't find few hours in a whole week to come out with a proper post. I guess the only way to say is that I'm losing my inspiration to write.

In the past when I'm not happy about stuff, I have the inspiration to comment and blog about it. This makes me happy and the attention that comes to my blog lets me bask in happiness. Especially when my blogpost can hit comments of up to like 20+ in the past, I become hyperventilating.

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And yet again, I don't dare to let everyone in the world know about how I feel, so I don't dare to put it up on Facebook Notes. It's far too public for my liking. So it's kind of like a dilemma within me. This dilemma eventually caused me to lose motivation and inspiration. Slowly I let go of blogging, to the extent I forgot what my password is.

To be frank, I'm blogging again right now because I don't want to totally lose my writing skills, plus encouragement from Serene who is part of the MAS's Unemployment Statistics and Desmond the Celebrity Dog Groomer endorsed by the Dog Whisperer Cesar Milan. But who am I kidding, partly it's also cause I'm bored. How long will this drive inside me continue I have no idea, how long will I be so "free" in the office I have no idea (BTW, it's not that I want to be restless at work, but it's cause I simply don't have access to relevant systems I need to work!) I'll try to blog as often as possible such as once a week. If not maybe after some big event and I have things that I want to express.

Regardless please bare with me as I restart myself. Especially now since I have officially graduated and that now I'm in a new phrase of life, let the blogging begin!