The Confused Takahina

An average person's life in Singapore or any part of the world should contain the following steps:

- Grow up, learning essential skills

- Mature, understanding your life and environment

- Realize, start to know what you want in life,

- Plan, devising out the most appropriate way to carry out this plan

- Action, to carry out this plan and revising it along the way to suit the surroundings.

- Relax, to keep pace slow and enjoy life more now after fighting for almost half a decade.

Along the way, you will feel confused and bewildered.

Takahina did, in fact I always feel confused and bewildered while walking along this path.

I'm now stuck at the "action" phase, still carrying it out. After all this phase is the longest and hardest phase to go through, and whether your life can succeed or not, whether you can relax or not depends on this Action phase.

I have my certainty on where to go, but doubts on my planning, doubts on my skills. Along the way, I get distracted, and let things overshadow my proper view.

It's natural I guess, things like love, lust, friendship, kinship, emptiness, boredom... etc etc, many things in this life tends to shift your view, affect your emotions and alter your priority to something else.

These things are necessary, I don't believe in a life not experiencing any of this and achieving straight route to your goal. If anyone can fully detach himself from all of such emotionally-attached concepts, that person is not human. These things make life more exciting, more nerve-wrecking... imagine it to be like the little crooks that always pokes you while you're concentrating on the boss of a stage in a game. Not really a bother, but seriously irritating and if you don't bother about it it'll poke you to death.

Recently I've let this little creeps to irritate me to death. I kinda deviated from my priority at a point of time. This CNY, meeting up with my cousins and talking a bit, made me understand my folly in ignoring this little creep to let it poke me to critical life. Although I'm not dead yet; just let this thing continue to slowly poke me, I'm pretty sure it'll kill me in my final boss battle.

Everyone should at some point in time, experience the same thing, it may not be now, may not be later, but it'll appear. No boss battle is the same without the little critters around.

For now, I'm trying my best to figure out how to get rid/recruit in this little creep disturbing me now and then, but until then I cannot lose my sight which I did.

Stop being confused, deal with the creep, and continue to fight the boss.

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Just a form of "self-motivation" to myself on this CNY day, which isn't very happy. :/

Hope you guys get a Happy CNY, if not, just take some time, rest up and continue on the boss battle after resting. :)