The Christmas Takahina

Well, firstly of all post season greetings to everyone. Fuck it, Christmas has already ended by the time I write this. Now is what they call boxing day. What do you do on this day, Box everyone till they all become Pandaren. After that, Pandas in China won't be endangered, bamboo shoots will be. Why even care about those critters anyway?

Anyway, christmas is imo, just a festival for commercialized activity to take place, as simple as that. So in other words, the economy for any country and the mood for any businessman will be very good, thanks to this christmas. I'm not saying that it's bad though. People gather and meet on this day, talk crap and all. If the mood gets good then 2 person of the opposite sex may meet up and go to Hotel 81, once again another commercialized activity has been conducted and all are happy.

So, naturally Takahina has his own activities done. So let's go back to 24th Dec.

24th Dec:

Woke up and groaned about the lack of money in my bank account. To solve that problem, do more housework. Thus so I was unusually quick in my houseworking on that day. Then my mother asked me.

"You think you want to make Ba Zhang for the christmas party tomorrow?"

"It's not Duan Wu Festival. But if you want to I don't mind."

"Forget it, no time to wash the leaves of it le."

You can never know the mind of my mother. She asks strange questions like.

Mom to bread seller: "Hey, this one delicious or not?"

Bread Seller: "YA! Confirmed Delicious one!"

Anyway, soon after I went over to meet Rurouni at 1.30pm at MRT. Apparantly someone had transmit the wRONG time and in the end I had to wait bout 25mins for all of them to arrive except for the person who gave the wRONG time. Anyway, our activity is Kboxing.

And expected, the whole place is full of girls in mini-skirts. Yippee!! So we went on singing from 2pm-7pm. And throughout, Rong was always there to wreck my song. YiPPEE!! Also, I realised Onishinobi's singing style is really unique, the way he sing is like those dual singing, it's like 1 sings the original key while the other goes for another tone of key. Such singing skills are harder to grasp. One example is the "Shan Hu Hai" by Lara from South Fist Mother and a brand of dog food named Jay. Notice at different times, Lara sings at a different key or tone from Jay. That is the so called dual singing.

Soon after, we decide to go for Korean Garden. But we checked the price, fucking expensive by $3. This detered us. Then soon enough, I gradually realised my hatred for western food. Expensive and unfilling. So we retreated back to Korean Garden since all other restaurants are either more ex or full. We waited for around 30mins before deciding again.

"Let's go somewhere else eat. This is fucked up."

"Indeed, we are hungry."

So, we went to a place we never thought will go.

Genki Sushi.

In the end, for around $3 lesser than Korean Garden, we had our fill and fun. Watching ben puking is always a pleasant sight. So, now they go to my house. For some reason, it's always my house to be the final destination.

Then I realised that my mother had prepared another gift for me and that I received a christmas card. Was very happy that she had the heart to send me. Proves at least she hasn't forgotten me.

And so, Rurouni began playing 2 games.

1. Heroes of Might and Magic 3: Complete
2. Pokemon Cards

Yea, pokemon cards. Interesting ne? An interesting sight to see is that Rurouni is changing from being addicted to Dota to being addicted to Heroes of Might and Magic 3. At least the latter is so much fucking cheaper than Dota, 1 is at least $10 for 5 heroes of DOTA, the other is FREE!! And expectedly, between players, it's always the HAN's who wins. Chin Han and Woon Han. Ben and Rong being upset at their lost, went to chiong more heroes while the rest of us either slept or played pokemon cards.

This event lasted the whole night. Personally, i slept at 6am, woke up at 8am to send them, slept till 12pm again. Interesting day.

25th Dec:

Yea, christmas, blah blah blah. But the one thing which seriously surprised me is the short chat on MSN i had with Karen. Was shocked. I shall not say why.

Then also, Rong left his key with me at home. I wonder how he smuggle back home. Then I had a few hours of slacking. Oh, Rurouni, my mother also bought all of ur breakfast, but you guys are already gone, so... ^^;

Next, the family went to Ah Ma's house for the Christmas Party. Somehow, I don't seem to feel integrated enough there compared to Grandma's house (Father's side). And at there, I had my second turkey of my life. Also, didn't talk to Kathryn. Don't know why. Maybe she is too tall tts why.

Also, Father gave me a Hong Bao... credited to me anyway. Looks like the theory that Chin Han provided; "The Only Difference Between Santa and God of Fortune is their hair colour." managed to persuade my father. And also, this is one of the few rare occasion I actually Sa Jiao to my father for $. I feel like I am more suited to be a girl... Shit.

And now, I'm writing this. fuck Christmas anyway. Because...

1. Christmas proves the ending of your holidays.
2. Overrated.
3. There is no such thing as a sexy Santa costume being worn in reality like those you see in the Carlsberg Beer Commercial.... or is it Heinnken? Ah Fuck lah.

I feel hurt.

I feel hurt now.

After the wake of Miss Lee's.

Even though I went out with Tian Wei, had a silly time.

But still, the hurt lingers.

I'm not acting myself now.

I don't know what happened.

Her funeral's tomorrow.

I don't feel like going.

I don't wanna cry again.

Everytime I cry, I don't want to let people know.

But deep down, my heart craves for people's console.

I just want someone to be there for me.

But even if they are there, I can't make myself say out my pain.

I want to go tomorrow, because I don't want to have any regrets to my favourite teacher.

But, I don't want to go, because I can't stand the feeling of crying.

Crying to yourself, alone.

Reluctant to let people know your own pain.

When I went to my auntie's funeral, it's the same.

I cry, but I force myself not to.

My body was shaking tremondously, tears just flow out.

But I force myself, not to make noise.

"Not to cry, stop myself."

The situation is the same for today, and tomorrow will be similiar.

I hate that situation.

When I got to know more of myself and my emotions, I truly cried for only 6 times.

I cried once in Secondary School, I cried twice at home, I cried once after visiting my hospitalized Grandpa. I cried 2 weeks before when I saw Miss Lee and today during the wake upon seeing Miss Lee's gorgeous face.

All these 6 times, people may know, but nobody saw.

In the end, all I want is someone to be there for me, I want to openly cry out in front of someone.

With the choked up voice, the staggering voice.

I used to think I'm strong, I can handle my own emotions and problems.

But now, I really need someone...

Someone whom I can cry out to.

Throughout my life, I have never truly express my own troubles.

I keep all the sadness inside me, even though it may be insignificant compared to perhaps starving or war.

But still, I don't express it.

I only listen to other people's problem.

Then now I realised, it's not that nobody is willing to hear me, but I can't speak it.

I look at myself in the mirror.

The once plump and inconfident face, is now active and confident enough to face people.

Thanks to Miss Lee.

But now, this face has fallen to the state of emotionless, dry lips, slightly reddish eyes.

I can't sleep at night.

My heart aches continuously.

My mind is constantly pondering over many things.

Love, Relationship, Life, Death, Purpose.

The silent peaceful night has now turned to dreadful sorrowful night.

Am I being immature writing such things?

Am I being immature for thinking that my problems are significant compared to the world?

I don't know.

All I know is, I don't want to go, but I don't want to have regrets.

What should I do?

Only 7 hours left...

Don't force me to hate myself.

Death of a loved one

Miss Lee passed away on the Monday, 12th December 2005.

Someone called me from the hospital, informing me and all of her students of the news. I heard crying sounds from the phone, and that caller is in tears as well.

Called Peiling, whom is a student of Miss Lee's. She knows of it as well. My brother was contacted through sms, but I'm sure that the students will contact him as well.

Strangely, all Peiling and I felt, is just a sense of helplessness and emotionless. We don't feel terribly sad, even though we know we're supposed to, but the feeling is just not there.

Why?

The other time I felt this was when I heard of the news of my auntie, whom passed away in the hospital, due to cancer as well. I obtained the news at 5.30 am, 30mins before I was to wake up and head for my primary school.

During that time, I don't feel much as well. Unknowingly, I can't feel sadness. This time is the same.

Peiling asked me why? Frankly, I can't answer it myself. I don't know how to answer. I can only say, "Maybe it's too sudden? Maybe we can't feel the sadness looming."

I'm glad I went to visit her on Saturday, and then informed Peiling to visit her on that day as well. I really was glad.

I don't know why, but I can't feel anything now. Nothing. I don't feel like listening to music, I don't feel like doing anything now. I don't even feel like talking it out to anyone. But I know I must express out my bewilderment and confusion now. Regardlessly.

Even though I'm not Christian, but may God embrace her with his light. May Miss Lee rest in peace in heaven.




Won't blog for the next week.

The "Holidaying" Takahina

For those who do not know, JC students are having holidays for almost a month now and there's just 3 weeks of it left.

Due to me lacking of the mood and the mind of writing any sensible shit after playing Heroes of Might and Magic 3:Complete with Chin Han and Junrong from 1am to 6.30am, I shall just write a wasted post of what Takahina normally does in holidays.

Ok, you people should have noticed of the "Currently playing..." and "Currently seeking..." shit that is impaled onto the left frame of the website, let me just explain the use of those 2 later.

Ok, during holiday time, my schedule is very simple. I call it the "Law of Free Days."

1. Complete 1 course of homework, then you're allowed of 1 hour of doing the "Law of Activity" task.

2. There will be resting time residing from when I sleep up to 1pm. So to say I never sleep more than 1pm unlike Samuel who loves to waste his life sleeping till 4pm. Another resting time will be from 5pm to 9pm. Then after 2am I'm free to do what I want. So to say, I don't sleep before 2am.

3. During resting time, you can do whatever you want. Just make sure you don't die.

4. If there are events on that day, like saying watching a movie at 3pm. Then I won't do homework until the next homework time. However, if the event starts on a resting time, then before the event happens I'll do homework. The event will then change to be a resting time.

Ok, that is mainly the schedule in a holiday. But then how do I judge which "Currently playing/watching..." thingy to do? That goes into another law of mine, named the "Law of Activities." It moves in a cycle, so you people should get the driff.

1. Role Playing Game, a.k.a RPG. Etc: Final Fantasy X-2. Only 1 ending for it. So for RPGs with multiple endings that require conditions from the start of the game like Suikoden 3, I'll play for it's other endings after a cycle. However if the ending is able to get acquired at fairly late stage of the game, then it's no problem to get the ending all at once.

2. Fighting Game. Etc: Guilty Gear XX. Only 1 full ending for a character per play. So like in Guilty Gear XX there is story mode and arcade mode. I'll need to complete both arcade mode and story mode to consider the game passed.

3. Watch Anime. Etc: Rurouni Kenshin. Simple, just finish watching the whole thing. This involves all the OVAs and movies involved. If watching anime which has not finished production, priority will be placed on watching that anime, overriding any other activies.

4. Action RPG. Etc: Shinobi. 1 ending for each play. Game play style similar to RPGs. Just that it's a different genre of game.

5. Computer Games. Etc: Heroes of Might and Magic 3: Complete. Once again, similiar rules applies from RPG. However, for Computer Games you can use cheat codes. But not recommended. Don't ask me why, I just like it. For games like "The Sims" whereby there is no ending to it, play it for at least 30 hours. I'll keep note of the time.

6. Bishoujo Games. Etc: Pick me Honey! I know I know, don't use that fucked up eyes to stare at me. Bishoujo Games does have their playability. Just think of it as... a RPG with porn in it. Yeah, nice stuff. So, the same rules applies from RPG. Just that you need to be physically fit and mentally sensible to play it. Not recommended for most people.

So, that's how the cycle moves. Normally I won't switch to other games because I wanna discipline myself in playing that game, no matter how kan na sai it is. However I'll include in side games and they can only be strategy games such as "Romance of the 3 Kingdoms." That's why for those people who frequently sees my rack of games, they are stacked accordingly if you notice.

Hmmm, then for my "Currently seeking..." list. It's termed under the "Law of purchase".

I'll first create a list of things which I would wanna buy, respectively:

Manga
Anime
Books/Novels
Misc items such as Drumsticks or DVD stand or DVD casing
Poster
Games
CDs
Anime Pokercards

Manga needs no elaboration.
Anime needs no elaboration.
Books/Novels include guidebooks and such.
Posters needs no elaboration. But my room is running of all walls.
Games include PC games and Pirated PS2 games. Don't worry, I'll make the piracy look genuine.
CDs needs no elaboration.
Anime pokercards are mostly bought from Comics Connection.

Hmmm, don't really think got any more to say.

I'll just sleep. Thanks to the 5 hours of night gaming.

The performing and painful Takahina

Hmmm... how do I start off with this... I'm in a little bewildered mood right now.

Anyway, let me start with the main event i've been having for this whole week and that is on the performance in Soka's youth festival.

It began on a fateful day when Priscilla; member of Soka, contacted me and asked if i would like to perform. Seeing that i have nothing to do and that since there is chance for me to perform, why not? Some of you may now start thinking, it's Soka, why do I hav to take part? Well, for the performance, even if you're not a member, you can go for it. So everyone get this clear, Takahina still chant Nanmu Amitabha, not Ningmou Aring Gay Giaur. Don't ask me how to spell that, it's in a type of gibberish which I can't understand.

Thus so, I went for the rehearsal. I was rather surprised to hear that it's Stomp, which is something related to drumming lah. Thus so, with a little more flicking of my hands and you could perhaps say a little showing off from me, the instructor decided to let me create out my make-shift drumset made of fire extinguishers, water buckets and any other shit we can find. Thus so, it's like now I'm going to have my own solo part. Something I didn't expect initially.

After that, I realise there is gonna be another performance, which is something like a mass dance. Wasn't really interested in it, but since I have DDR training, it shouldn't be a problem.

After training for like a whole week (Don't wanna talk about the details), on this 3rd Dec sat was the performance date. There was 2 performances going on and thus so includes 2 Stomp and 2 Mass Dance. I was ok with Stomp, after all, it can't do without my solo.... :x However the mass dance was a little crazy, all the kids and all acted like little idiots and mad asses, it was crazy. And I don't really like their enthusiatic attitude, but I guess it's needed for such mass dance thingy. Whatever.

During the training, there was 1 thing I realised and that is even the main instructor went out of timing at times. Instantly, I don't know what to say, but since if the timing and counting is distorted from the mainframe of any drumming theory, I can only follow it. Effect was good, thanks to the training I got from Drum Mania (Arcade game), thus I can like create all warped up sounds and rhythms i got from the arcade game. Looks like it's not as impractical as I expected after all.

And the best thing is that for the drum solo part, it requires 16 bars of 4, and that is exactly the timing for the beginning of Tamayura, a song in the Drum Mania which I'm rather good at. Plus the mood was exactly perfect for the performance, I used that. I dragged Benjamin, Rong and even Priscilla to train Tamayura in the arcade. Many thanks to the Century Square arcade for accomodating the drum mania machine even if it sucks. Plus, your DDR machine and Capcom VS SNK both ate my $1, don't think I forgot about it.

Anyway, I set up the stage and all and thus was ready to go. As I step in, I went into like...

WTF

At first, I expected to hav a section of my instruments on the stage area, perhaps background. But! They actually made an extra stage just for mine! I was really flattered... too flattered you could say. I never expected my part to be this significant.

When it started, it was ok, but I have 1 problem. My buckets keep on falling off stage. I was worried and I have to constantly hold the pills. But think, how can i drum properly with just 1 hand?? Thus so, the first performance, in my opinion, was just a 6/10. At least the solo Tamayura part was good.

Soon after, that was a short break till the mass dance thingy, thus so I waited around. It was then I received a message.

"Miss Lee is in critical condition. Please see her ASAP."

I was shocked. Very shocked. Miss Lee has been my tuition teacher from Primary 3 to Sec 4 and you could say without her, there won't be the present Takahina.

Now I was getting jittery. I have one more performance and the soon to come mass dance. I was in a totally no mood to perform now. Especially the super enthus mass dance, really not my stuff. But still, I have to last on. At least finish the final Stomp performance. The mass dance can be easily short of 1 person no problem.

So I lasted on. Performed Mass Dance. Forced myself to smile and laugh all, but still i'm not in a good mood. Instead I got more and more irritated at myself and the whole mood. After it, all i'm left is just a full strength drumming. I already applied leave for the second mass dance.

And thus so, it begans. With the spotlight on me, I used my 100% strength. Probably due to the news of my tuition teacher, rage or pain just fills my hands with strength.... Too comic le.

Anyway, the second stomp was good. No pills went berserk and rhythm is ok. Saw Jonathan by the way. And I destroyed a lot of pills on that day. Throughout the week, I devastated a total of 4 middle sized buckets, 2 small sized buckets and 2 big sized buckets. I love Tamayura.

Soon after I went, met up with parents and went for SGH.

Miss Lee was frail and thin... too thin. In the past she was plump and had a good voice and hearty appearance. But now, she looks so... fragile. I can't imagine it. I almost couldn't recognize her after just few months!

She talked to me in a very pale soft voice, a complete contrast to her previously vibrant voice. She was talking so softly that just her appearance and voiced had me totally stunned. Soon after she still asked my studies and many others... it was like, she was trying to say out all her pent up words that she had not told me for a very long time. And indeed, i felt her concern and also her hopes. It was just, heart-aching... totally unbearable. Seeing her in this way is too painful. Due to the cringes of disease, she was now the complete opposite of what I know about her a year ago.

When she talked to me, it was as if she was trying to tell me all her words, it was like... her last words. I couldn't bear it and cried.

From what I know, Miss Lee had her death wills done and was baptised recently due to the influence and the helped offered by the christian committee. She also wanted to see all of the students she taught, even those who were now successful and reputable personnel in their field of profession. And indeed, students from all over came. Hong Kong, Australia and many more.

Now, I didn't really think too much into god or any buddha or even the recent Soka religion. But now, I really hope... really, that she can recover.

Thanks to Priscilla for comforting me and letting me have an enjoyable time at Soka.
Thanks to Miss Lee's students for informing me of the news.
Sorry to Mei Yi and few others for not being able to attend the second Mass Dance.
Sorry to Miss Lee for not frequently seeing you more often.

The Normal Takahina

Lately, I have been having several discussions with Ben, Jae Sung and Benji with Benji of large percentage. We have been mostly discussing about few issues, such as why studying sucks, why we feel Singapore is fucked up, why are we still single and several other irrelevent issues such as Dota, how to rape a girl and how to get a girl.

But so, Benji has managed to unify a main term for the whole of this issue. That is, "Normal". Let me digress.

In Singapore, the more common way or should I say "normal" way of life for any kids is to study, degree/diploma, job, fuck, retire, die.

Or the more easier said, "SDJFRD". But do note, that is just the macroscopic view of the whole "life" and "normal" issue. There is still the microview. Sounds like Economics.

Anyway, so to say that SDJFRD is the more common lifestyle for most Singaporeans, Takahina included. However, within there is still the issue of life such as Puberty, Character, Love and many others.

Let me just state an example, for characteristic.

Normal Chinese Male Singaporean Teenagers aged 13-18:

- Mostly types in a childish way. Lately from BiG tO sMaLl has turned to ~[= I'm a fucker =]~ and they feel proud to be able to type in a manner most others find stupid.

- Mostly will just like Jay Chou, few will love him. Even fewer will find him a fucker.

- Mostly will have alot of cutey smilies, but in actual fact it only shows how much they like to lag their own computer.

- Download Anime, never buys. And they are very proud to be able to download. "LOOK, I'M THE FIRST TO DL FF:AC, U LOSER MUAHAHAHAHA..."

- Watch porn before, but totally refuses to talk about it.

Well, these are just some few points to describe. Other type of abnormal examples could be like in Puberty, you are a female but you have a small penis starting to grow around that area. For more details please watch the hentai "Bible Black". Girls don't scream, in reality there is indeed such medical cases, but most can't survive infantry stages.

Anyway, the few points we discussed on normality is on girls, exercising, traditional values and the favourite sexual occurrence that could happen.

Girls:

Now, aren't they just one of the thing of wonders to any man? Everyone has different view and requirement for girls they like. Benji for example hates gentle, weak and unspeaking ladies and likes jumpy and siao siao girls like Selphie in Final Fantasy 8 and Rikku in Final Fantasy 10. On the other hand, I just want the girl to be of normal weight and i'm happy. Thus so, you can easily spot the difference.

However, the more generalised "normal" girl in Singapore is things such as...

- I Love Dogs ^^

- JaY cHoU rOx!! ^^

- Any music as long as not techno.

I tell you, you go friendster check, 7 out of 10 will write something similar to the 3rd point. If you see them write

- Any music as long as not Jay Chou.

That! is a very abnormal girl. Only 1 out of 10000 will write something similar to it.

Now now on a note, abnormality is not a bad thing. In fact it could even be good. For benji anyways.

However, if you check out on a... let's say an Indian girl in an Indian Friendster, what could be normal is...

- I laugh easily, once I see an Indian man with turban headbanging a table. Great stuff!

Well, for example nia lah. No offence meant.... heck i dun even know any Indian Friendster.

Well, so you see every country has different "normality" and then so how can this affect our viewpoints?

Well, if you have every girl in Singapore write in a "normal" manner. Then SG guys would be hoping for a totally different girl. That's when he will pursue other country girls.

ALL HAIL VIETNAM AND THE $1 MAN!

Thus so, tts why i said abnormality is a possible virtue. But then, who will care anyway. Perhaps only Benji will care since he's the one who conducts "normality" test on Friendsters.

He watching you.

Conclusion: Normal Girls likes Jay Chou OR his songs as some girl I know emphasised, abnormal girls hate Jay Chou.

Exercising:

On some note, I want to applaude once again, Benji for making me realise this 1 great point behind the reasons of exercising. Normally, society wants us to exercise because of...

- Health problems

- You don't look good

- Because it's a good habit.

But then hor, please lah. In the end, why don't we fat people just stand up and say...

"I WANNA EXTEND MY FAMILY BLOODLINE!"

With health problems, we will be weak and our dicks could possible be unable to stand. Without looking good, girls won't let us fuck them. And lastly, fucking is a good habit if you want to reproduce.

Yup, all in all that is just my main reason. KNN. Stop acting innocent and just come out and say you wanna fuck someone. As simple as that.

The fact is that fat people are discriminated and you can't deny that. Thin people who die die also can't fat hor live in existence to scorn the existence of the fat people. And stop saying that you thin not good. RUBBISH!

You thin, girls won't be disgusted with you.
You fat, girls are turned off by your belly.

Frankly, the society can't differentiate too much between thin and normal weight. But overweight people they can easily and hurtfully discriminate. I have been subjected to that pain so many times that I'm used to it. Haha, to think of it... that is perhaps why fat people are known to be more tolerant. Because we suffered enough shit to train up our tolerance level.

Why don't we just say and act abnormal by saying we want to lose weight because we wanna fuck a girl. We don't care about our health and all those shit. But we just wanna get out of the unknowingly discrimination that the society subjects to us regardless it's on purpose or not.

Normal weight people, can you please be considerate to the abnormal weight people?

Conclusion: Normal fatties wanna lose weight due to health problem. Abnormal fatties wanna lose weight due to being unable to fuck a girl or get sued while fucking one.

Traditional Values:

Time as well, has an effect on the "normal" values that a society subjects to. Let's say in the past, girls protect their virgin like their lives. Because normally once virginity is taken by the wrong person, their lives are also most likely gone in suicide. I really have to give it to the people in the past, they have so much courage to suicide.

Anyway, nowadays youngsters don't regard "virginity" as much. They observe and follow the rules of "不要天长地久, 只要曾经用过". For people who are weak in chinese, it means "Don't care sky long ground old, just care use before." People do not care too much into virginity anymore and even more hiong girls are willing to seperate with it with their love or what before marriage. Rong and Benji are 2 person whom I know don't look too much into if their girlfriend is a virgin or not, but surprise surprise, Takahina is a person who actually is quite concerned.

When I mean by concerned is that if... IF Takahina does get a chance to fuck a girl and only to realise she's not virgin. He will be thinking, "OMG, i'm not her first." while enjoying the process of the procedure. And then soon after call any type of assasins, regardless Phantom, Stealth or Nerubian, if not call up Silencer and then instruct for the death of any guys who fucked with her.

OK ok, kidding.

But still it will stir me a little lah. Regardlessly. Not that I will go break up with her after that, but i'll be like a little sad. Yea.... LITTLE.... Girls reading this. Move away from Takahina, he's very... dangerous...

Conclusion: Takahina is dangerous.

Sexual preferances (if we were to watch any porn)

Personally my favourite will be 2 on 1. Which is the 2, which is the 1. You think yourself.

Benji, don't blame me... i need to consider the viewership of this blog....

HE LIKES FORCED SEX.

Ok done.

Conclusion: Takahina is a fucker.

Well, in the all... what is the fucking purpose of this post?

Hopefully people will refrain from being normal. SDJFRD is really a very sad life to live through.

Secondly, I write for fun one.

Takahina isn't in too good of a mood while writing this post.

The scared Takahina

Why am I scared?

Cause I just watched a damned it show called "Ghost Hunters" on channel 18 on Starhub cable tv and now i'm imaginating that "I see dead people". The other bad thing is, my parents have gone to Genting once again and now I'm alone while brother is almost in non-existent in his room with his Guardian Force.

Anyway, I used to recall how I used to fear ghost... Now let me recall...

When I was around in primary school to secondary 3, I don't dare to watch any ghost shit at all, even though it does attract me. So I'm constantly fighting with myself...

"Don't watch it! Watch liao you can't sleep!"

Damn it, there are even times I'm scared of sound effects which emits from my radio. I still remember there is one very old sound effect or commercial from 98.7 which goes..

"Dell dell dell dell de dell dell dell dell..." loop that shit and you get a shit which can scare 10 year old boy boy.

Thus so, you people will know why I don't listen to English music le.

Then in sec 4 and now, I start to realise that watching the ghost show is ok, it's the sound effects which kills u. At least that's what i learn from "The Ring" and "Ju-on". Then at long as you anticipate when the ghost shit will appear, it won't be that scary. That's why everybody, always watch spoilers and trailers for ghost show. But then hor.

Boy boy like this...



Still looks bloody scary with that white face. So fuck him. But Ju-on 2 has a much much more scarier image than this.

Well, so what can we do to counter such ghostly shit? We close our eyes and shut our ears.

Like these monkeys.



But ignore the "say no evil" monkey. We need to say evil to scold the producers of the show.

Through my insufficient experience with ghost shows, I realised that the main pulling factor for it is due to possible 3 reasons.

1. They like to subject themselves to psychological shocks which can be conducted by ghost.

2. They love ghost and wish to fuck them?

3. They just got curious to the netherworld.

For the first reason, I can only say they like to torture themselves, not my business.

For the second reason, I can say that some people are just bent on seeing them. Like that show "Ghost Hunters" which I just watched, they want to prove their existence. They just wanna see them for the first time! And also you do know of shows whereby ghost can love human.

Third reasons are for people like me. I don't wanna get scared, but then the plot of knowing if there is any possible ghost lurking around behind you reading this sentence now, or is there anyway to solve and to have the ghost turn into buddha or god is simply, too interesting. I just want to know the plot, but i hate the screaming me part, so what i always do I to close my eyes and ears in the cinema, and pretend my eyes are wide open like nodding or so.

From this, we can deduce. Is there really ghost lurking around us?

Well, this is just my own opinion lah. I DO believe in floating spirits and all. Better to believe than never, right? However, do they harm you? My call on that is that you don't fuck with them, they won't fuck with you period.

So please people, don't dumb dumb go climb what old changi hospitaland those haunted places. If you youngsters wanna have sex but without the money to go motel, go choose like carpark stairs or what, don't ever try to perform free shows in front of the many ghosts, it's not worth it. If you want more exciting sex you can try the school canteen at night. At least there is still slight light for you to see where you aim.

So IMO, you can believe in them (NO, YOU DON'T PRAY TO THEM EXCEPT DURING THE HUNGRY GHOST FESTIVAL.) But, never offend them by keep on inflitrating their home. They dislike it.

Well, some tips for how to notice ghost presence. (Thanks to that show I watched just now)

1. Check for cold spots or areas. These are areas comparably cold compared to the surrounding.
2. Anything moving without anything touching it? Definitely a ghost.
3. See a damn it ghostly figure in that neoprint you took just now? Don't go to that shop anymore.

Well, done about ghost.

Just now was Rong's birthday party we held, so we went to chomp chomp in Serangoon to eat. Frankly, I feel we can try other places like maybe Newton? Well, I'm not sure of the eating spots in Singapore lah. Rurouni gave him a pair of drumsticks, DAI LAST cd and a Naruto figurine.

Rong, if you're reading this, do note that there are 4 more of the figures. So you should continue buying till you get all 5.

Had fun over at chomp chomp and Jaesung was just like a clown. Also, I was nudged to step on SOMETHING. Lucky I was quick enough to notice and thus I did not tio full impact. Happy bday Rong.

Also, been going out with someone lately. Yes she is a female..

Well, damn that show... thus so I think I'll take an hour to sleep. Gd night everybody.

The Drumming and Working Takahina

Yo Yo Yo!! Sorry ar, supposed to blog at saturday one... but then... aiya long story. I'll describe each day for you all lah hor.

7-8 November 2005:

Nothing much worth talking about, but on 7th Nov I received the news I have to work from 9th nov to 13nov and the timing is a rather fucked up timing. Also obtained information that Tian Wei is welcomed to work as well.

Another thing is that we played dota in Kembangan. Not bad, price and computers are very good. Used Queen of Cards... no, queen of pain. Hated Benji and his Keeper of the Light for 1 hour. That's all.

9th November 2005:

First time working, so was a little nervous. But still, Takahina took the time to gel his hair and with permission from mom and NOT brother's, used brother's shoes to work.

Frankly hor, perhaps the shoes was a grave mistake because it hurt... alot. Dunno why, but Takahina think the shoe is too small for him ar. Then, Takahina was there in the shop wondering what to do. Suddenly, the boss tell him.

"Go vacuum the whole blue carpet downstairs for the showroom."

"Blue carpet?" Takahina thought. "Shouldn't be too much of a job then."

Takahina was WRONG. The whole area was around.... think 8 living rooms attached together. Plus, the public embarassment was bad for Takahina. To think, a young guy vacuuming the whole bloody floor of suntec. Then while you vacuum, those idiot KIDS go RUN RUN RUN around the damn it carpet. WA LAO, you can never finish vacuuming one.

BUT BUT~~ Luckily Takahina receives vacuuming training every Saturday, so vacuuming to him, is relatively easy. So... heng ar.

But still, those kids are true fuckers.

Soon after, went to bought leather shoes. But came to regret it soon after.

10 Nov 2005:

Takahina has oral presentation on that day, so he didn't go for work in the early timing. Only went for it around 1pm. His Oral presentation wasn't too bad, but like he expected, Desmond Ong was not to standard. What can he do?

Don't care lor.

Anyway, Takahina after the thing went to work. Tian Wei was on shift on that day so he went early. Abruptly, upon reaching Takahina realised that the blue carpet he vacuumed was now covered with a damn it small stage and lots of guitars and chairs.

"Whatever" was the feeling he felt.

Soon after, the drum ensemble boys went for their rehearsal once again. For Takahina, perhaps that practice is one of the best ones. BUT, they were interupted by the boss as she said.

"The studio tio booked liao. GET OUT."

Ok, Takahina's exaggerating. But that was somewhat the feeling he got. So we got out 30mins earlier... and thus so he went to have lunch with Tian Wei. Takahina slightly got the feeling that he wasn't too pleased with the co-workers and boss. Got a little worried.

Rest of the day was giving away fliers while encountering sibei dao Singaporeans and also getting prices of the guitars down, acting like a guitar pro while you're actually a total idiot at it and getting scorned at while the customers asked where are the guitars from and you say...

"CHINA."

Customers immediately turn face. Come on... what's wrong with China? Don't forget...

CHINA WILL GROW LARGER. And it's a nice place to build.

The keeping of the whole showroom was also, a pain in the ass. It takes around 1 hour to finish keeping all shit and Takahina dropped one double string acoustic guitar while bringing it up. Great.

During the whole process of the day, Takahina's feets possibly due to the damn it leather shoes, his legs were like screaming "NABEI CHEEBYE!!!!" for the whole day.

Very pain.

However, the best console for that day will be after work whereby he talked with one of the OCBC FEMALE members. Around 20+, short hair with a demure look. Quite nice person Takahina must add, not the most pretty girls Takahina see around in suntec, but definitely one of the more amiable ones.

11 Nov 2005:

Came for the early shift with Tian Wei. Was Samuel's birthday as well, but was unable to attend it. Thus Takahina felt a little guilty, but still heck care.

Today was the official selling day, so Takahina was like selling shit for the whole day. WHAT CAN A TOTAL GUITAR IDIOT TALK TO A GUITAR PRO ABOUT GUITAR?! NABEI! Takahina was really going like...

"WTF AM I RECEIVING MY WAGES FOR!? STANDING WITH A SUPER LOUSY SHOE!?"

Bah. Anyway, soon after Takahina waited for the show of Micheal Shuack, a pro drummer who works for Roland and demostrating on the use of the Electric Drums. Good stuff Takahina must say, really good. Perhaps he's on par with Jimmy as well? However, electric drums are still too expensive to be bought with.

The worse thing is, Takahina has to act as a bodyguard for the guitars! BAH!

Let me tell you, Takahina is starting to hate guitar from that point onwards.

Soon after, Tian Wei announced his news of quitting. Not really pleasant to Takahina's ears as he felt at that time, Tian Wei's a little too hot-tempered. Maybe not spoilt, but hot-tempered for sure. Whatever reasons, he's gone.

Of course, Takahina won't forget, that OCBC lady again. Haha, once again talked with her for sometime and was real happy to meet such a nice lady. She was gradually turning into the greatest light of my job.

12 Nov 2005:

Ah, this day was the GREAT day whereby the DRUMMING starts. Takahina was excited and was anticipating this moment more than over. However before that happens...

"WH! GO AND POLISH THE GRAND PIANOS!"

>_>

And so.. Takahina went to polish it... nice and clean. Took around 1 hour for him to finish as Takahina slacked along the way. He didn't want to serve the DAO Singaporeans. After that, Takahina just went around and sell things, do shitty stuff and get nagged by the boss whenever she felt the need to be stressed. Fliers included.

Anyway, the classical piece of the concert started first so Takahina and the few others were called to now change our act from salesman to coolies. Actually, Takahina prefered to be coolie, cause it's much more simpler that way. And the recognition you get from being a coolie is actually more than salesman! This proves of how deplorable being a salesman can be. You do crap load of work, but your hard work will always be ignored. Bah.

Anyway, the rock and pop part of the concert started after round 2hrs and Takahina excitedly went up on stage. Their nervousness was not that obvious. Why? Thanks to the previous group of drum ensemble which actually was quite... average. So, they went on to perform.

However, let's not forget for the few people whom went to support Takahina! There are 3 groups!

1st group to arrive: Priscilla and her friend whom I have no knowledge of her name. ^^
2nd group to arrive: Samuel ^^
3rd group to arrive: Rurouni - Chin Han, Ben, Benji, Jun Rong and Jae Sung. ^^

Hehe... many thanks to these people for coming even though it's just a miserable 3mins of drum performance. Really arigatou ^^. Also, very sorry for not being able to serve or talk to you people more ah... I have work lah... really sorry...

Anyway, let's return back to the story.

During the performance, the host now gave their group another name... Panadol. Also good lah, not bad.

PIB: Why Panadol?

Because...

Tian Wei said, "Any band name lor." Notice the words in red.

He was situated on the left side, while the one answering is on the right, so the right could not hear properly and said.

Melvin, "Pa (Band) Na (Name) Dol (Lor)"

Ok, let me digress back to the story again. During the performance, Takahina realised something thanks to the constant persistent of Rurouni saying Takahina was showing off. Takahina has a habit of spinning drumsticks. He was like, in perhaps after every crash or 4 bar, spinned his stick once. And when they ended, Takahina spinned it again...

PIB: AH!! TAKAHINA YOU THIS SHITIFIED PIECE OF POO WHO SPINS STICK! SHOW OFF!

Whatever you say lah hor. Maybe Takahina is really showing off??? YOu won't know...

Anyway, after the thing, Takahina was glad and happy cause that's their current best piece. Better than any rehearsal had. Even Jimmy was smiling. Really, unexpected. Soon after, most of the performance was just crap lah, but then the teacher's piece was real good especially when Jimmy was invited up stage to perform his drums. Brilliant.

BUT, the joy ended with the boss forcing Takahina to go work again. Bah. Lucky she provided free food catered if not Takahina will express all his hokkien vocabulary.

However, the joy once again came thanks to the OCBC LADY! Talked to her again and waved! SO HAPPY...

But Takahina's feet still hurt.

13 Nov 2005:

Mood felt strange cause it's the last day but then it seems as if it's like a dream for the job to end so fast. Even my results were good, Takahina remembers that he sold...

1 Guitar pick
1 pair of drum sticks
1 $550 double string acoustic guitar (Yes, the one which Takahina dropped)
1 $375 Electric Guitar

For a total noob like Takahina is, to be able to pull that off is quite impressive le ok?? But still lah, the market there was for Casio Keyboards. There was like on average 5 sold everyday. Amazing. Must be those auntie mothers.

Then there was the concert once again, but then Takahina did not give too much of a notice to it lah. He was more interested in shifting all the drums and grand pianos up. Many thanks to Melvin for helping out FREE. Really nice. But do think twice if you wanna work there next year. Teachers performed again and for once, Takahina was acting like someone whom he hates.

Super enthu personnel - loud and uncontributing.

Anyway, the boss said that the wages will be given next week sat, so there was no panic. And also she offered to treat us supper at Newton. Was quite attracted ar, but then Takahina didn't felt too close to them and also was a little wary of the timing. But still the main reason is..

PIB: OCBC Lady.

CORRECT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Takahina was looking forward to meeting her again, cause it's my last day... Takahina wanna like get her number or something. BUT!!!! TAKAHINA WAS RELEASED TOO LATE TO MEET HER...

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...

Will Takahina get to see her another time and so?... Haiz... only buddha knows....

Sope, that's the main procedure that Takahina had during the 5 days. Then for the remaining of the day he was just slacking around, playing games and creating excuses for playing it and not doing homework.

Also, Takahina has done another review. It's on F.I.R this time, so feel free to read. It's located on the left side... under the "My Links" collumn.

Well... done... my life will be returning back to normal now.

The Drumming Takahina

I'm slightly pissed off today.

By what?

2 issues... actually, mainly 1 issue pissed me. But whatever.

Let me get to something which i found out first lah. Takahina has realised on how VAIN he could be. Let me just elaborate.

Firstly, you guys know I have the recent drum performance that has both dry run rehearsal outside the sch which actually could be counted as a mini performance and also the main performance period right?

Well, I think I've been rather... enthusiatic about it, and thus so the enthusiatic me began advertising on it... for at least round 3 weeks before hand. My purpose? Naturally to let people come and see my drum lah. I'm the drumming Takahina leh! However, Takahina also know that the performance is just a short little 2.41mins + shit which doesn't deserve some ppls time to come and watch! They can just stay at home do shit, i don't care. So, i said...

"Come if you all want to lah... I don't care."

But then hor, I care... ALOT.

This proves of how vain I am.. So how? Only can "hope" in my heart they actually come lah. Alas, none of them turned up. So how? Can only silently bui song. But still, this feeling hor, is a very bad one. So how? Reflect on my vainness.

Well, "The Drum Ensemble Guys", thats the name which the host of the concert gave, includes of Tian Wei, Fredrick, Melvin and of course Takahina with Takahina being the main leader.

People in background: KAO PEI AR! NEED TO WRITE YOU BEING MAIN LEADER MEH!?

Takahina: I shuang leh! How?

Anyway, the mini-performance dry run rehearsal was conducted today at suntec 3.30pm.... was supposed to be at 3.30pm but due to some disorganisation, it was delayed to 4.15pm. With performed our drum ensemble and it was ok... I guess. Jimmy wasn't too happy though, our timing grew faster as the drumming went on. People who knows how to hear and play instruments will naturally notice of it, but then for those who don't, it didn't sound too bad. Still, jimmy somewhat coerced us to return back to the studio and RETRAIN the whole damn song. What to do?

RETRAIN LOR.

Anyway, we reentered the studio, and began again. But our training only gets worse lah... Our timing was off and the solo was somewhat horrible. But then, it was somewhat too late to think of any better ways to savage it, hence we jus continued with our crap.

Soon after, Jimmy once again coerced us to go perform a second time again! So, bo pian lor... went for it.

It got worse.

Those unknowing crowds don't know lah, but then hor, to us and also to those jammers, our mistakes were obvious. Tian Wei's, Melvin's and my solo went out of the timing and once again our tempo were on the increase. And lastly, the cresendo was not sharp plus not tight. Thus it was like hearing an asshole pumping down shit like it's a machine gun.

pliack pliack pliack.

Not too happy. But whatever lah, get it over with.

Ok, performance thingy aside. The holidays are here and since i'm short of money, I thought of like work to get some dough. Luckily, due to the performance of my music sch, it needs part timers to help out with selling and arrangement of the instruments. I opted for it, partly with the help of my mother since she is the colleague of the sister of the principal of the school.

And, easily, i got the job. The pay is reasonable and I like the timing, plus it can help me like gain knowledge of the instruments I'm going to sell, very nice and ideal for me.

PIB: How about your arcade drums?

Hah, not too good as well. Frankly, arcade drums hor at times good at times suck. But those in the end are just FAKE drums. FAKE.

Hmmm... well, i'll repost the timing of the actual performance again. And ONCE AGAIN, I'll stress that it's not neccesary for you to come, i'll just be a little sore that's all. After round a day or 2 i'll be fine le.

Venue: Suntec Lvl1, just below Toy' Rus.
Time: 2pm is the start of the whole thing. I perform at round 3.30.
Duration: Whole thing will be 3 hours. But my performance should be only 2.41mins.

Ok? UNDERSTOOD?

Good.

Next time then I'll start complaining. Now, I'll just keep on sulking on my lack of supporters.

The sian ji bua Takahina

By right shouldn't blog now.

But

I am damned bored now.

Waiting in sch library with one of my PW members watching me writing shit now. How????

Takahina: Give idea leh... what to write?

Ain: Don't know

bah.

Oh ya, tomorrow which is 5.11.05, i have a drum rehearsal open air outside my school which is 3rd floor suntect.. i mentioned it b4 in the previous message. The timing is 3.30pm, not 4pm. And it'll be only round 2min... sad.

So..

come

if u want to lah.

Takahina: Ain, say something leh./

Ain: I'll be comiing

Takahina: You sure.

Ain: Don't know.

Bah!

The "Reminiscencing" Takahina

*Please note that there is no such word as "reminiscencing" only reminiscence or reminiscent. It means remembering an event or activity or something like that.*

Ok, as promised, i'll finally began to the usual schedule of blogging every weekend on a Saturday. Yay!!

Hmmmm, where to start... do note that today's post will not have anything too mature.

Drumming - Essential part of Takahina le.

Ok, 1 thing that comes to my mind now will be drumming. Firstly, Takahina will have a performance which last only about 3-4 mins. It's a 4 person drum play so Takahina is just 1/4 of the performance.

Official data is...

Venue : Suntec City Lvl 1. Around the platform just below Toyr'us.
Time: 11th November 2005. 4pm.
Time of activity: 3-4 mins nia...

Then, another time you can catch us is at...

Venue: Suntec City Lvl 3. Just outside Music Clef School.
Time: 4the November 2005. Timing not confirmed.
Time of activity: Not confirmed.

Well, i expected a longer timing, but whatever lah. Our standard still not there yet. That's all I can say. But then hor, drumming has now become quite a part of my life. Cause whenever I feel depressed hor, I dun call the number 1800-223-1313 (The depressed hotline). But instead, I feel like taking up the pair of drumsticks which i presume is harder than your bone then PA!! the drummania machine. But..... BUT! The stupid drum machine at the Century Square arcade die die also always got problem one!

SIBEI PEK CHIEK AR!

Why? Because everytime the cymbol is spoilt. And why is that so? Cause I see everytime! There will be a drumming swordsman waving and using his drumstick as a sword and with great dexterity, creating touching music onto the plastic piece of greyish rubber. Beautiful.

In case you don't understand. Then don't bother le. Too much technical terms in there to comprehend.

Well, regarding drumming I hav also advanced to intermidiate (sp?) level. So now it has grown more expensive.

Well, excluding that. Just last saturday I went to see Jimmy Lee my drum teacher play drum with his band, Chronic 7. Really, their music was superb, at least I felt so. This is one of the few concerts which got me really attracted. Their music is not the stereotype and dumb dumb pop music. Instead it's a much more advanced standard of music like acid jazz, new age and fusion. You can also call it Alkali Jazz. But really, it showed of the power that each instrument can play.

What they used to play?

Drums, Percussions like African drums and tamborine, Bass guitar, Electric Guitar and 2 keyboardist, 1 with the main rhythm and also another with the guai guai sounds one like frog screams.

Their standard frankly lah, all very good. Can perform nicely done solos on their own. I was inspired. That is the type of music which I hope to perform in the future. Not those just use pure brute strength to PA the damn shit, not just those with standard beats of a drum. But instead continously different beats with it harmonizing beauitfully with the flow of the music. I mean, i see Jimmy play, got entertainment value sia!!!

Imagine, his left hand like machine gun, tham tham tham tham tham 1 whole bar, then right hand at that time in the air ready to PIA the mini sized cymbol which i hadn't seen before at all. Then POM the cymbol pia!!

OH MY GOD!!!! WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! OU XIANG OU XIANG!!! WOU DE MAH AR!!!!

Really, really, Professor Jimmy Lee is really a very superb drummer. Of course i won't say the best, but in SG, he's the best i've saw personally.

Ok ok, enough of drums, I think you all hear liao also sian ji pua.

Well, so now how? Enter another realm of the activity I have done these few weeks. Dota.


Defense of the Ancients - 1 game which I hate to admit is fun.

So how now? In the past, even though I don't give dota too much thought, but then truly it's quite addictive lah. The thing is Takahina don't like to do things which are VERY VERY hot. Esp in SG. For example is Dota le. When ppl intro me to DOTA, i was like resistant. Cause, I don't like to be like most average Singaporean whom I feel is too standard. You can guess their actions one.

Etc:

When Final Fantasy VII: AC is out. Almost the WHOLE of Singapore went to chiong it. Even those people who didn't play FFVII.

Frankly, whenever something good or exciting comes out like Naruto, DotA or even Jue Dui Superstar, Singaporeans will chiong it. When that happens, it will create into a trend whereby something good will also be overwhelmed to it being seemingly commonfare and then people won't find it good. It's ironic really... very ironic.

I tell you ar, if Naruto was not so hot in Singapore, I may have pursued it long time ago le. So blame who? Blame you narutards. :p. Keep on telling me Naruto very nice. Keep on saying lah! You say more the MORE i won't watch.

Heng now not much people going for the Naruto craze, so at least my interest in Naruto is slowly popping back.

For Dota, it's the different thing le. Dota is the one rare case whereby Takahina will actually go with the craze BUT, not as hiong as most people are. There is an evidence to prove it.

Once the Rurouni (My secondary sch group) went to Bugis to dota. There was only 2 comp available, so 2 among our group went for it. I went to play drummaniaV at bugis which was 1 of the best machine i saw. On a sidenote, it's called one of the best cause you can miss up to 100 in a row and won't die. At most in red life. But then, since it's so easy, alot of novices go there and play and Takahina will always watch and insult them secretly.

How?

"Ah... this guy dumb dumb!! LOUSY!! MUAHAHAHA..."

Anyways, back to dota. So after drumming, we went back to wait for compys. Then, got 2 comp le. My friends say who play? I say i play drum. This proves that although I do like Dota, but I can restraint myself. Ah....

But still, it's a good game lah. I'm not too much of an expert but at least not too much of a noob as well.

Side note: I always miscall Queen of Cards of FF8 to Queen of Pain of Dota. Samuel Lim of 7 Swords chided me for that.

Hmmm, now talk what?

Disappointment of the Chalet - Talks about human behaviour


Well, I don't know to say am I biased or what. But there was this case of a chalet which Rurouni co-planned in making and it ended it quite a failure.

1. Not as much people came as planned.
2. Some came but didn't pay as requested
3. Uninvited people came as well
4. Uninvited people didn't pay but ate more than those invited.

Well, but in the end it's the co-planners who finished up the extra food.

The thing showed of the fickleness of any person. 1 principle which I have always believed is that people will change, no matter how minor they will change as a person during every major period of their life. And also there is also the part whereby people should let go but cannot let go despite going through it for 4 years.

My bro Tian Wei has grown more patient and understanding, not saying he isn't in the past. Benji has grown a little more responsible compared to the past. Woon Han has become more talkative and idiotic and immature compared to last year. So indeed everyone changes.

406 (Secondary School Class) in the past is i should say a rather united class. In that most events we attend and quite active. But then now, the whole spirit is gone. I guess its inevitable throughout the 1 year. And then, everyone develops a new type of spirit. I'm close to my class now... (at least i think i am) and I'm quite close to 7 swords as well. And from there i learnt of few things like singing and finally doing fake pull-ups.

Then from the Rurouni I learnt of alot of things as well.. too much to state actually. So to say... it's just a cycle of life. Nothing can be together and nothing can be eternal.

But then hor, another human behaviour I saw is the fact of dispromise (new term formed by Takahina). Esp on the money side, money and all can really make people go siao one. Few people never pay as promised, just cause they claim they didn't eat enough. But then, the whole event is like a buffet whereby u jus cook and pick. You don't eat enough, your own business lah...

You know? It's cause you don't eat enough, we co-planners have to shit out all the food. Yeah, we're blaming you people for making us eat more. Happy?! SONG?! MUAHAHAHAHAHA,,,

Happy at seeing old faces? Sure. Disappointment from during behaviour? Definitely.


Exam results - Takahina's dismay at not only his own but also others.

Hmmm, my results are average to say the least. Not too pleasant, esp Chinese whereby I expected at least a B3 but only to obtain a C6. And the Chinese exam is just tomorrow. Damn.

Anyway, my sad results is one thing, but then what i truly hate is the attitude of other people.

Let me ask you people, when u get something like BCC, you don't go and write on your msn nick saying, "Die liao lah... Exam results like shit.. how..."

Such issues, make me fume with supreme anger. Like I once stated in a much earlier post which made this blog almost famous in my class, I hate people flaunting shit like this. These actions are completely inconsiderate and annoying to people like me, who hoped for good result and received things like CEE. And still I don't go around saying my results are KNS, just cause I know there are still people worse than me!

And to think their response at first before the exams is, "Aiya, I just wanna promote, thats all."

Wou Pei! PUI PUI PUI!!!

Frankly, such behaviour is truly hypocritic. Consider the people with much worse results, it's very hurting to them don't you discover? You will only make them depress and make them think their results are truly worst of the worst and their whole life in JC is just a total piece of shitload mistake.

I tell you. Only people who can't promote are the people who can write "DiE lIaO lAh, ExAmS rEsUlTs LiKe ShIt... HoW?"

For those people getting shit like CCC or BCC or more than sufficient to pass to write such things, let me show you something.

*The following picture may be too explicit.*



Don't force me to show another. It's more disgusting than this.

Such things is why I always say Singaporeans are totally immature. And i mean TOTALLY. Flame me lah! I WILL REFUTE YOU SINGAPOREANS!...

I feel like i'm scolding myself sia.


Hmmm...

Dunno what else to talk bout le.

Maybe just a short one on my computer and something regarding the last 2 post.

As you people know, the previous previous post is meant for someone in my family. Well, why am I so agitated? Because Takahina has commited similiar crimes when he was still in pri sch and that he has been seriously punished for that. Not corporal but spiritual, i kneeled in front of the guan ying statue in my living room hor and cried like a fucker with his penis cut off. Really worked for me. That's why when he said something like that i was so fucking pissed off. And now my parents got wind of it.

Today, just before i'm writing this I was eating out, celebrating my bro's b'day. Ironic, but throughout the whole night I did not mention or talk to him at all. Cause I'm perfectly clear it's not me. I did not even look at him in the face for more than 2 sec straight. Yup, this is how I'm reacting to him now and I won't reconcile with him unless he officially apologized to me. At my face, in front of my parents.

Now regardin the other one, my computer is quite slow now compared to before I realised. And it also creates a much more audible processing sound compared to before. A little worried I am. Cause I'm scared after 2 months of no computing, I will be with that situation again in perhaps just a few weeks.

Hopefully no more beeps sound.

Oh ya, I promised a Takako picture right? Let me show you guys what I showed Sam on Friday.

SAM... PROUD OF YOUR SEPHIROTH WALLPAPER RIGHT? WITNESS THE MIGHT OF TAKAKO!!

*Warning, the below picture could prove too big for this blog to handle. So handle with care.*



Most people already know of this background. But then, i need to show Sam who is the better one... hahahahahahahaha...

And also, I PROVED SAM WRONG BY GETTING A 3200+ SCORE AT GUNNER'S GAUNTLET IN FFX-2.

So how Sam!? TREATING ME TO LUNCH FOR HELPING YOU GETTING ADAMANTINE? MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Welcome Takahina...

Lets celebrate the returning of The True Takahina... Lets start by having a new header finally... thats nice right... better appreciate it..

[its 4am now]

The Return of Takahina!!!

FINALLY!!! AFTER A FREAKIN LONG TIME, MY COMPUTER IS FINALLY BACK!!!

YEAH YEAH YEAH~~~~

*went babbering on his bed like some idiot...*

Anyway, i know i know... you guys missed me right? I can just see from the viewership jumping from 300+ to 417 now...

^^

That means, you people have been anticipating my return! Yay!!

But really ar, this few days without my computer has been quite arduous... and i lost out on alot of things... so i'll take quite some freaking time to check out on what i've missed this few days. Yay!

Won't blog much today... but will blog a whole lot of shit of Sat... SO ANTICIPATE!!! YAY!!

On another note... I got a new mouse... so Onishinobi, don't keep on complaining that my mouse is sucky to play Starcraft... cause there is a new mouse now!

It has no balls, it's a female with a constant red light shooting.

Oh ya, one more news i obtained is that my screen's constant blue is due to it being too old..?? Well, will elaborate on 29 Oct. Anticipate...

AND I STILL HAVE MORE TAKAKO PICS!!! But then, don't show you leh... show you on Sat...

The very pissed Takahina

It's after the fucking exams and by right i should be in a bloody cheery mood right. But some FUCKANATHAN destroyed this pleasant sunday by accusing something which i didn't did.

I dun care he's reading this or not, but my conscious is very clear. I didn't do it and i won't do it.

I WAS LIKE WTF when all of a sudden in this good night when he jus sms and shoot me a piece of rubbish cow fodder crap which i had no knowledge of! And i was still kind enough to offer help for this dilema in his!

But shit no! FUCKER DID NOT CARE AND INSISTED IT'S ME. True it won't be my parents and neither do i want to think who the fuck would do it. BUT LISTEN IT'S NOT ME!

Nabe cheebye.

I may have commited similiar incidents in my guillble childhood past but DEFINITELY NOT NOW! AND PLEASE, i have the sufficient money in my own bank account and i would rather walk for the 5 mins walk to the nearest atm.

Also, please think lah. You only used obligations and no true evidence, just with your assumed form of intelligence you think its me. I dun even dare to touch any things on your shelves when i'm mopping your room! Notice I dare to shift all chairs up to the bed or table even in my parents room, but it's your room which is the only one that is always left untouched by me! HOW CAN YOU ACCUSE ME NABE!

If you just want money, say it. I can even lend you $500 1 shot. Why would I even bother to go to your bedroom and do something like this!?

You said you're disappointed in me.

Hah.

I'm more disappointed in you.

You insist its me right? K lor. Take back this laptop of yours, lock your room and keep the bloody key to yourself. I DUN WANNA CARE AT ALL CHEEBYE.

Kanina.

The Reviewing Takahina

Yo

Miss me?

Continue doing it then.

Yay.

wtf, this is going to make me lose readers.

Anyway, it's around the promos for Takahina and those JC1 people all around Singapore, so Takahina here shall be a good guy which is a very rare opportunity and wish all of you good luck.

By right I should wish you all bad luck so that I can keep all the good luck to myself, and then win you guys like fuck in the promos, but watever lah, i not so chek ark.

Hmmm, going back, i realised my site meter hit 300. Elated i am indeed. Frankly, thanks to all who support... even though i believe that these people are those close friends of mine who go regularly to see if i update or not lah. Just to let you all know, my computer has been sent to uncle for repairs, and thus so i'm blogging from my bro com which is a very rare thing. Normally I won't blog on other ppl account for security purposes and especially bro's cause he made get access to this blog... but then... i dun care liao lah aiya. Samuel and a few others keep on pestering me to blog... like I live for blogging like that.

No, i don't live for blogging.

Do you know how much harm blogging can cause? Make you suspended and even get famous on newspapers, no matter how, blogging is getting dangerous nowadays and I won't dare to scold people le. If must scold, must turn here and there like some confucious idiot, I'm not going to do that unless I want to.

Haiz, digress too much le. Why I suddenly blog is due to me wanting to inform you all that my Love Hina review is up and you guys are welcomed to read it. It's under the "links" side which is to the left of the webpage you are viewing now dumb dumb. Love Hina is the latest review, so you have to read the latest post in that forum naturally.

Hmmm, why did I write the review all of a sudden and especially during this promoting time? Well, Takahina has a habit of not studying during the exams and then studying when not during the exams. This eludes my unique and speciality which is obviously negatively different from most people... haiz... i'm so proud of myself.

Anyway I'm gone... and i doubt i'll be posting next week unless my computer gets repaired.

Jaa ne... oh ya... no Takako pics. It's all in the computer being repaired.... oh shit... repairing means it'll get reformatted and then all pics will be gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Computer status update.

Sorry ah, my fuckanathaning cheesebun computer now under the beep x infinity treatment and i can't post up any form of shit.

Oh ya, the previous post was done by Ben Yeo Lock Wei. Takahina doesn't post such untasteful lunchbox.

So, looking by the trend of it possibly even this week i don't think can post.

Continue missing me.

Oh ya, written a new review on Love Hina (Anime) but due to the fucked up beeping treatment, I can't post it.

guess who

Takahina is a mushroom.

The "teacher daying" Takahina

My computer went beeping yesterday... which is a Saturday and hence I can't blog even though I do have the rare and occasional linggan coming in on that day. Damn.

That's why i hate it when my computer goes beep, schedules will all go siao siao one, sibei sian... kannina..

Then why am I typing this now if my computer is down? Well, I just watched a feng shui show titled "Taiwan Miao Miao Miao" and it teaches me of a very importatn feng shui leh...

Feng shui tip: STUDENTS/WORKERS/WATEVER all alike! Don't ever have your studying chair's back facing the door! It will serve as a form of distraction to your work!!

Hah, no wonder I can't get my work done everytime... that's why I took the trouble to change it all! Now my computer isn't facing the window, it's facing to the inner side of the wall while my chair is now not facing the door's back and facing the bookshelves.

Another Feng shui tip: TRY TO HAVE YOUR CHAIR'S BACK FACING A BOOKSHELF! The knowledge from the bookshelf is said to be able to flow into your mind!!

There's a few more given, but it's for the financial help and all in your house... very chim stuff so I chose to ignore them.

Anyway, after I changed the whole set up of my room and attached the whole computer up again, it worked! Freaky shit but whatever.

Oh ya, another note, my parents went for holiday this weekend and for the 2 past day i was kao bei-ing in the house like it's nobody shit. Invited Tian Wei over for studying period only to end up singing karaoke with cds and his handphone.

Anyway, back to the topic. The last week is the week with teacher's day, so the school was mad and i'm mad. I'm actually taking photos.

Just went to schools to visit teachers and called Miss Lee (My past tuition teacher) for respect. Then there was this barbecue happening over in Mei Yi's (A classmate) house so I just popped over, making sure that my $10 was fully utilised. My plan was, "Cook everything then eat while I'm cooking, if not drink away all the soft drinks." It didn't work out as plan, but whatever lah hor, it was fun anyways.

Nothing much left to brag about, so i'll just put up pics.



Oops... wrong pic lah. But then hor, she looks good right... right??.. RIGHT!!?!?!



Desmond Chan (Classmate in TPJC) took a private pic of Econs Teacher Miss Magdalene Loh.



And soon after took one of the group...



And another... of almost everything same... notice the only changes which happened are among the right 3 students, the left 3 students are standing like no tomorrow.

Soon after, I went to East View to meet up teachers... and thanks to Yiren, I fulfilled one year long dream...



Taking a photo with the two geography teachers!!! The two most beautiful Miss Tans in EVSS!! But then hor, why they laugh until like that I frankly dunno. Anything is... remind me, the next time i smile, don't let me show my teeth.

Soon after I attended the barbecue as mentioned. Took group photos in the end.







Notice 1 thing in all 3 pics. Desmond Ong (another classmate) who is situated on the most left side of the picture and bending down a little in front of 2 girls.

In the first pic, he blocked Yoke Yee's (Another classmate) face.

In the second pic, he blocked Shi Min's (Another Classmate) face.

Then in the third pic, he once again blocked Yoke Yee's face albeit slightly.

Notice 1 more thing in the pics. The guys on the right, Samuel, Audric, Qing Heng and me; we have our positions in constant post for the first 2 pics. But notice the last pic, only Audric remainded the same.

This concludes one thing.

He's a statue.

Another person to check out is Samuel (a guy who likes to be on the right side of the pic for all 5 pics), he has the same dead expression for first 4 pics cept for the last when he chose to make fun of the suave and distracted Takahina.

Next thing, notice Desmond Chan (The one squating in front of Miss Loh in pic 1 then immediately siam to stand besider her in pic 2.) He has the SAME TEETHY SMILE for the first 4 pics. 5th one cannot count cause during that pic there was this stupid earthquake which happened in Singapore for the first time. Heard it was caused due to 100 fatties commiting suicide by jumping off a 50 storey high building at the same time. Horrifying. So never underestimate the power of fatties. Once ALL FATTIES in the world unite, hohoho... hydrogen bomb will be inferior!!!

Ok. Post done. Short I know.

The "Japanese movies" loving Takahina

Friends will know I like Japanese movies or any Asian movie more than the average fare of American movie. (Well, friends, if you don't know then now you know).

And coincidentally, I just watched 2 movies today. 1 is American fare and the other is Japanese fare. The American movie is "Bewitched" while the Japanese movie is "Inochi" which I watched on TV.

So, today Takahina shall give a comparison between this two and I'll justify my reasons to why, I prefer Japanese movies. But, my reviews will be basterdized, so you have been warned.

Of course, it's wrong of me to generalise the difference with just 2 cases of movie, I'll elaborate as a whole.

(Students may want to take examples because from what I understand, this is how you can link examples into theories, like subject like Econs. But of course, I may be wrong. I'm no teacher, I'm just Takahina.)

First on:



I won't say this is a totally bad movie.

This movie is quite a comedic touch at least to say and it's rare to see Nicole Kidman to actually film in such a quirky flim. It focuses on the possiblilty of loving someone just cause of love and nothing else and how love is so precious and blah blah...

The comedic touch is fine, but sadly to say... the storyplot can only be moderate fare. In terms of artistic sense and feel, such movies are just too frequently done in US films. The moral and meaning it tries to convey are just too commonfare. Common isn't bad, but it's ordinary so it doesn't make this movie extremely well noticed.

On another note, I don't really like the main actor...



He freaks me off badly.

Secondly:



I watched this on Variety Vision channel 56. The title for it is "Inochi" or "Life" when translated.

This may be a movie from few years ago, graphics and camera-shot wise, it's not as stunning as "Bewitched" or even most films nowadays, but the storyplot and the sense behind it is just exceptionally and beautifully portrayed.

The movie is talking about an unmarried and unfathered pregnant lady seeking support from her ex-boyfriend who on the otherhand suffers from a fatal illness. With 1 life about to be borned while another life about to be gone, how will they support each other in such a time of crisis.

This movie touched on the side of humanity and the importance of life itself, which frankly i feel is a much needed inspiration to many of the misleaded and unguided youths of today. I'm not old myself (So naturally I'm a youth), but this movie had greatly brought to me about the essence of life and love among friends/parnters/parents itself. Birth, Death, Confusion, Disease, all are nicely depicted here. Very encouraging and indeed worthy of a praise.

And to be praised by The True Takahina is no simple feat. It's very sacred.

Now, how do I link this movies to my reason. Simple.

Firstly, I implore all movie watchers to reflect and think back on the movies you have saw. Among how many are US movies?

People in Background: Quite a few.

How many talk about love and happy forever after and blah? If not, about the don't know what kinda plot bad guys are planning and in the end subdued by a much overwhelmed group/person. If not, how many talk about some person denying orders from his superior and then going alone, killing all the badies with some very powerful gadgets?

People in Background: Quite a lot.

Examples like?

People in Background: Wedding Crashers, Charlie Angels, James Bond?

I can't say they are bad, but you know there are just too many examples of such a kind. Too many of the same kind will only lead to - commonfare work. So a supposedly good work can in the end, end up inferior. But of course not all US shows are bad to be fair. Shows like Harry Porter, Finding Nemo, Star Wars and quite a few others, they can be considered excellent.

(So don't you go on saying I'm just biased, i'm only mildly biased)

If so, let me continue on asking, how many of those movies actually discuss on the issues of life, death and not just love? How many of those issues go on exploring on the discrimination and constant problems faced in the true society?

People in Background: Not much.

Of course, their knowledge is limited.

People in Background: Hmph! Then why don't you name some movies of Japanese or Asian fare which explores on such issues?

Sure.

"Inochi" - Japanese film
"Yomigaeri" - Japanese film
"Be with you" - Jap film
"I not Stupid" - Singapore film
"Homerun" - Spore film
"April Story" - Jap film
"Brother" - Korean film
"Perth: The masscre of Geylang" - Spore film
"1 hour??" - Korean film --> I'm not sure of the title. But it's about a parents joy for a baby who can only live for 1 hour after birth.

To just name a few, I've seen few more others which are nicely done. You may notice that some Singapore fare are very nice as well and the moral behind it is well depicted in our local society. Jack Neo has indeed done well.

Of course, there are inferior work of Asian as well... and I'm a little sad to say but commonfare again actually comes from Hong Kong whereby there are once again many movies which in the end will end up the 2 main actor/actress being together. Japanese also has some inferior work like... forgot the title le. Korean films work on a sure win formula which is able to earn laughter and tears but in the end, you can realise the format is just the same.

This is one reason why, I don't really like to watch movies, cause they are mostly US movies which sadly, I got to pale to their slapstick humour and rather, unenthusiatic storyplot. However, I do like Spider-man or Chee-bye-der-man as I like to call it when I was young.

Lastly, of course this are all just my personal opinion. The movie industry may have changed now from what I know. I don't have perfect knowledge after all. One way they can make me change their opinion is to be able to make me cry when watching. I'm a very emotional person who can tear easily when watching movies.

People in Background: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, CHICKEN WUSS!!!!

Shut up.

On a last note, anyone is free to comment on this as I suspect it may bring in unhappiness in hardcore US movie fans. I'm ready for any flaming.

The mushroom-hair styled Takahina

And once again, after a long time since the very long hair cut done in January 2005, Takahina has once again came in known as the mushroom haired guy, a.k.a Shitake Mushroom.



Gotta admit, I really look like a mushroom. But i like to eat them as well so whatever.

An extra note though, you got to know that there are different type of mushrooms.

First, Shitake Mushroom.



Don't it look delicious... Well, it does have several health uses.

1. Weight Reduction - So suitable for me
2. Fights bacteria - but it's a bacteria itself....
3. Inhibits HIV - So eat it before u have sex with monkeys

And many others lah, I don't care.

Second, straw mushroom.



I only know I don't really like it and it looks like a penis head. Oh ya, Qing Heng (my classmate) has a hair style quite similar.

Third, golden needle mushroom.



Ok lah, i translate it direct from the Chinese term 金针菇, so i dunno how should u call it. And i don't know what properties it has. I only know, I quite like it.



This is another type of mushroom I like and I only know it comes from a can food branded Golden Boy Mushroom. I still remember there is a dumb commercial on it.

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A man tries to spray some salt on 2 of this small sized mushroom, the mushroom seemingly alive, actually skipped off the salt!!!



Wow!

That guy annoyed, went to spray pepper at the mushrooms. The mushrooms only continued to skip off at that peppery onslaught!!



Wow!

That guy, completely in furnished fury, just took a fork and he went off to kill it!!! Strangely the mushrooms didn't jump this time, seemingly crying to him saying, "KILL ME WITH A FORK!!"

He ate it and he nodded his head in acceptance, happy that he has finally killed this 2 menacing mushrooms.

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Well, mushrooms aside, i wonder what's wrong with having a mushroom head.



or, just a stupid hair style in that sense.

What I don't understand is why is it that guys are so attentive of their hair? Self esteem? Pride? Or you are just an avid fan of Dragonball Z?



Don't mind that green guy. He's bald and has two tentacles on his head.

If not, some guys love rambutan and durian?




I'm ok with anything, but the only hairstyle in which I can't notice the charm of is spiked hairstyle. I have nothing against Audric (another classmate) lah, I just don't like spiked hairstyle, it reminds me of a guy trying to act punk and that is very fake in my opinion.

But of course, hairstyle is your freedom.

The thing is why must we be that bothered with hairstyle? Because it dignifies our suaveness... to a large extent yes. I'll just show 2 pictures to depict of the great difference.




Due to the hairstyle of the top picture, it fully shows of his dumbness and unsuaveness compared to the one below. The beautiful and demure girl has no change in hairstyle at all. If the guy above has a better hairstyle, he will be more suitable for the girl than the one below...

*People in background runs to the background to vomit.

Aiya, Takuya, I still admire you lah, don't worry.

So point very much proven that hairstyle does make a big difference. However, Takahina still doesn't like the notion of placing hair in a very big position. Hair all in all are just a show of our appearance and appearance are not everything to us. Thus so it's not worth it to bring a bottle of wax/gel to school everyday and use a personalised comb to specialise your hair in the toilet. Do that at home, not school.

Normally, regarding the issue of hair there will be 3 types of people.

1. Totally disregard hairstyles, just uses the hairstyle of their pillow
2. Don't really care bout hairstyle, but will worry when people start to call him mushroom.
3. Everyday bring comb and gel, go toilet and spends more time than a girl
4. Can't help it but can only remain in 1 hairstyle

fluffy hair, yay.

Type 1 has a very strange perspective of appearance. For some reason they are just too lazy to be bothered with such trivia nature and will just ignore it. However ironically they can produce the best and worst hairstyle. The pillow is a great gel that is able to totally hardened the style of your hair, to the extent that even if you shake your head like siao, just a little adjustment will ensure the standardised hairstyle. Also, they are economist. They need not spend extra money to buy gel cause it's already gel for their life.

He just made his hair slightly wet and pushed the fringe to his right eye.

Type 2 are people who are indeed concerned about their appearance but are lazy to do anything about it. Cause they will think that no matter what hairstyle they have, no girls would care to bother about it, life still continues. But, when a girl does start to comment. CHAM LIAO, chiong, they will have to care bout that mushroom/bowl/watermelon hair of their's. So what to do? Use water and sweep their hair over. Problem settled.

Doesn't his hair look like it has too much gel to the extent it can kill?

Type 3 are people who are over concerned. They normally use too much gel or wax that their hair will seem to be flashy shining or just slimy white. They will care too much about the girls' attention even if the girls are just ignorant about it. Also, they use too much wax and gel that it will be so hard, they can use it for many uses like digging the ground or piercing through a wall, very useful indeed.



Do I still need to elaborate on type 4?

So what can we do? Go yunnan jian fa zhong xin to help? Or just buy a super strong gel?

Hairstyle mah... in the future it will just turn white and whittle. Why bother?

The Tired Takahina

Normally, I don't post personal story bout myself, I don't like to. What I normally post on are just social issues which I find fucked up with.

But today, I have no social issues, I find scolding people having no sense of meaning at all, after all will the society even take notice of such a minor blog which is gaining no fame or listening ears in whatever sense. Take for example the previous post in which I'm scolding people who listen to music openly and not using ear phones. Yesterday I sat the MRT only to find 2 Ah Lian to conduct the same behaviour which I have vehemently despised on.

So... why even bother scolding when nobody is listening!? This world is fucked up and the only way you can survive in it is to adapt with it. In the future, I shall blast One Night In Beijing on the MRT, mark my words.

For some reason, I don't know why but I'm so tired. Probably because I'm jerking off too much nowadays or simply I have lack of sleep. Imagine getting only 5 hrs of sleep everyday whereby the next day you have school. 7 Swords (The group in my class) will know I like to sleep around the rock wall area in school, surprisingly the wind is rather strong and cool in that area, making a good sleeping area. But still, I don't find my sleep enough. Then I realised something...

I may be tired physically, but mentally I'm more tired.

Let me just rant today. You'll notice that Takahina has never liked to say how hard life is for him as he has self awareness that in this fucked up world there will always be life more fucked up for others. Imagine Pakistan or Iraq, I don't think I need to elaborate. Therefore, if they do hear of us complaining how hard our life is, like "AH DAMN! I FAIL MY EXAMS. I WANNA GO AND DIE!" or "KANINA THIS MATHS SO HARD TO DO! WA LAO! FORGET IT AR, DUN WANNA DO LE!" they can only laugh at the deplorable Singaporeans who cries and lament on such minor troubles compared to getting bombed everyday.

At least, I have self awareness.

But today, I don't. So I shall complain and lament like a deplorable Singaporean.

I read on the newspaper once that human need at least 5 hrs of sleep to ensure their next day work. I'm reaching the minimum level I guess so by right, i should not be tired physically, i should have the energy to work perfectly the next day. But during tutorials and lectures, it's not that I don't want to listen, it is i can't help but.. sleep. ZZZZZZZzzzz

Perhaps the lesson is too boring? Perhaps the air-con provides a fine environment to sleep, I don't know. If I try to bring myself to listen, there will then be this splitting headache which i lure me to sleep again. ZZZZZZzzzzz

Also, while I'm writing this now, I feel a sense of sleepiness overwhelming me.

So what can it be? That is, I'm finally feeling the effects of stress.

There was a survey done one day in which they determine what type i am among 4 types. If I don't remember wrong it should be...

Tao Kay - Bossy
Sibei Niao - Calculative and Analysitic
Ham Chi - Timid
Sibei Char - Talkative, Sociable

I'm the sibei niao type. Suits me by the way,

They said sibei niao type releases stress by sleeping and being alone. I notice lately that's what I kinda like to do.

For example when 7 Swords went to yak over their Magic The Gathering game, I was pissed off so I went to sit alone in the hall with the fan blowing me. A girl was playing the piano there, nice tune.

Another example is i keep on sleeping early lately and I like to sleep after eating breakfast. Yay. Pig I shall be yes?

Thus I deduce i'm stressed.

But then, is this how stress feels like? Procrastinating the whole day and not doing homework at all even though there are tons of it just cause I don't feel like it. And just wanna stay at home not going out at all even if you give me free money.

It seems I'm just lazy more than anything, stress is just an excuse.

Well, what can I say. Maybe contrary to all my own beliefs, I'm a lazy person. (I use to think I'm not lazy, just tired) Maybe contrary to all my own beliefs, I'm an immature person after all. (I use to think I'm more mature than most of my peers who only compete on how good they are on card games for example.)

I don't know.

All I know is, I'm tired. I don't feel like doing homework. Heck I don't even feel like playing drum now. I don't feel like doing anything.

You know what I wanna do now? I just wanna say....

"WAH! DIE LIAO LOR!"

Pek chiek.