The Confused Takahina

An average person's life in Singapore or any part of the world should contain the following steps:

- Grow up, learning essential skills

- Mature, understanding your life and environment

- Realize, start to know what you want in life,

- Plan, devising out the most appropriate way to carry out this plan

- Action, to carry out this plan and revising it along the way to suit the surroundings.

- Relax, to keep pace slow and enjoy life more now after fighting for almost half a decade.

Along the way, you will feel confused and bewildered.

Takahina did, in fact I always feel confused and bewildered while walking along this path.

I'm now stuck at the "action" phase, still carrying it out. After all this phase is the longest and hardest phase to go through, and whether your life can succeed or not, whether you can relax or not depends on this Action phase.

I have my certainty on where to go, but doubts on my planning, doubts on my skills. Along the way, I get distracted, and let things overshadow my proper view.

It's natural I guess, things like love, lust, friendship, kinship, emptiness, boredom... etc etc, many things in this life tends to shift your view, affect your emotions and alter your priority to something else.

These things are necessary, I don't believe in a life not experiencing any of this and achieving straight route to your goal. If anyone can fully detach himself from all of such emotionally-attached concepts, that person is not human. These things make life more exciting, more nerve-wrecking... imagine it to be like the little crooks that always pokes you while you're concentrating on the boss of a stage in a game. Not really a bother, but seriously irritating and if you don't bother about it it'll poke you to death.

Recently I've let this little creeps to irritate me to death. I kinda deviated from my priority at a point of time. This CNY, meeting up with my cousins and talking a bit, made me understand my folly in ignoring this little creep to let it poke me to critical life. Although I'm not dead yet; just let this thing continue to slowly poke me, I'm pretty sure it'll kill me in my final boss battle.

Everyone should at some point in time, experience the same thing, it may not be now, may not be later, but it'll appear. No boss battle is the same without the little critters around.

For now, I'm trying my best to figure out how to get rid/recruit in this little creep disturbing me now and then, but until then I cannot lose my sight which I did.

Stop being confused, deal with the creep, and continue to fight the boss.

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Just a form of "self-motivation" to myself on this CNY day, which isn't very happy. :/

Hope you guys get a Happy CNY, if not, just take some time, rest up and continue on the boss battle after resting. :)

The Camwhoring Takahina

If you thought Takahina is a guy who doesn't like to be taken photos at, or doesn't camwhore at all..

You're so wrong.

Once again Takahina's theory of being "open", gets into pictures as well. Of course I don't act like some hongkong playboy kid who thinks he can get into every girl's pants with his looks and fame, and take pictures of whatever girls he wants. Seriously, screw such people. Casanova's should have principles of their own, and some brains to like not upload those photos to anywhere, maybe you can burn it into like CD-R, and forever let it be sealed into your deepest memories, no one gets hurt and it's a very sweet memory...

For you anyways Mr E.

Anyways, I'm not going around the whole speech of insulting some playboy, but instead... to show PICS...

And it's...

PICS OF MYSELF!!!!

YAYYYY~~ I know alot of you wanna see it right... ;)

K. The inspiration I admit, comes from a certain girl, and I realised, yes... THIS IS IT!!

Miss Kasumi Chai... take a bow... (to protect her image, I've removed the juicy parts...)



See Kasumi? Image protected by Takahina. :D

Anyways, this year buying CNY clothes for Takahina is quite an enjoyable trip.

Due to a few things.

Firstly, Takabenben said something which made Takahina a happy person.

"Woon, you look better in M, than in L."

Seriously, that made me realised...

"Takahina, you can finally wear M and look good." Huat liao, chaos ensures. Therefore following Kasumi's example, I decided to take pics of myself when I try on clothes which were either chosen by myself, or selected by others in which they felt was good for me. So to say, the pics which I post of myself, will never suck.

Naturally. Takahina is like... good... awfully good...




First one is this, the shirt which Takabenben said I look better in M. Huat liao. My first camwhoring experience... NOW I KNOW WHY THE GIRLS LIKE TO DO IT SO MUCH

ZOMGXZXZXZXZXZXZXZXZXZ....

Taken in Recoil, $40 worth, this shirt is the typical ah-beng t-shirt which you see nowadays in public. A more normal style for Takahina, this shirt goes mainly into the "clubbin" category, meaning you won't see much of Takahina in this. Not too attracted, but... I like it, simple, normal, adaptable, and that hint of ah-bengness in it. Good. Plus the cutting isn't too bad for someone of my size. However 1 thing is that I can't go any bigger in size, if not this shirt will look bad.

2nd one...



T-shirt in Pull and Bear, also worth $40, spotted by Takabenben on the same day. I loved the design of the T-shirt, Japanesy, complex yet subtle. The material of the T-shirt is good as well, fitting and shows of my new bod... HUR HUR HUR HUR....

3rd one... Not exactly a clothes thingy, but taken in the toilet after my haircut and a bit of hairstyling by the hairstylist.



To be frank, I wasn't very pleased with it. Kinda normal, and predicted to be hard to handle without good gel/wax. It focuses on layering and parting, a pretty normal style done by him.

I wanted to get back the feel of the hairdo I've done in the past when I first decided to dye my hair, only Desmond, Shimin who both coincidentally saw me on the streets and Priscilla who accompanied me throughout the whole process of the hairmaking (appreciate it... will give you a candy in the future :D) saw the design of the hairdo I've liked the most and felt confident the most. I didn't camwhore then, which is wasted. But to say it felt just a bit like this...



Takahina obviously didn't do a good job with both the camera and the hair. Obviously hair still remains one of the biggest obstacle for me, preventing me from becoming someone like



Takuya Kimura san.

Or



Takeshi Kaneshiro san, for my 2011 plans, activated by Takachinchin.

4th one, taken when shopping with Takaminmin in Ion's Muji. They have some real damn good casual Japanese wear there which Takahina didn't realised. DAMN.



Well apparantly, Takaminmin likes Cardigans and this type of savy casual as I call it. Takahina has NEVER in his life wore a cardigan before so it's the first time... Didn't buy this cause Takahina felt it's still a tad tight, despite Takahina being M-proof already.

5th one, same place, same time... different style.



I love the blouson, seriously it's the design which I was kinda looking for this year's CNY, a shirt-like jacket... can act as both anyways. Has a rather formal casual look to it which I like, not too beng, not too business either. The mood is just nice. Not too hot either, and cutting fits. I'll prefer a L for this, but M will do. :) It's a $100, at Muji.

So in the end, Takahina has finished his CNY shopping. HAPPY ^_^.

In anyways, when you realise that you can actually look good, just buy the clothes and think later. I mean it's the first time Takahina is really satisfied with his clothes this year. :D Initially wanted to buy a $175 jacket from Zara... heng Takabenben stopped me. :p

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To all the new fans of my blog, only 1 or 2 I know from UNI, :p, I'll throw in an extra pic of Desmond in the past just for fun. (JC pic...)



Desmond... is the nerd at the right, with glasses looking like a cock. Beside him is Qing Heng the Walking Joke. Me in front, a natural leader since birth. ;D Junwei the yardstick for noobness behind me, and the can't stop grinning Takasamsam at extreme left.

Huat la. Des, don't hate me man. I'm too good for you to hate.

The Japanese Takahina part 2

Mention Japan.

What are the few things you'll think of?



Sora Aoi... humba humba...



Yua Aida... huat la.... guys sweat liao right???

Ok ok, that's the perverted Takahina.

But seriously, it makes you think, why is Japanese's porn industry so vibrant? I mean Anime industry I can understand, with the story plot, the characters, the fantasy behind it, anyone can get interested and attracted to Anime/Manga industry.

But... porn... why??

Previously I stated before. Japan has a few greats. 1 is anime and their popculture. 2 is porn, 3 is their industry and financial power in Asia.

The 2nd great makes a good wonder, why Porn? I mean their porn industry is so brilliant, they have OLD PEOPLE PORN!

(Believe me, you don't wanna see the cover. It's nightmarish to the extent that even Takahina doesn't dare to post any of it on his blog)

Well of course with cute girls with angelic faces and demonic bodies, which guy won't be tempted to them? Their high pitch voices in porn can make anyone sweat.

But why did Japan enter this field in the first place? I thought on general they are a very conservative bunch?

Conservative? Yeah. Extremist, yeah. Fanatics, yeah.

The culture of Japan works in a strange way. The nature of "Rape Club" itself shows something. Their lack of respect for woman, and woman's nature of not being able to stand up for themselves, and in a sense a woman's lack of respect for themselves.

Takahina in a sense is conservative in that woman of all things, should protect their body and chastity the most, not being loose. You respect your dignity as a woman. (In a sense that's why I don't like the stereotyped clubbing girls, cause they seem to display a lack of self-protection) Naturally guys should do the same, don't fool around too much, have some self-restrain.

But of course, no one in the world cares about that, neither will the Japanese do. (Nor Sgreans as well) If money or impulse is able to make you sell your body, then you don't appeal to me. You can like me cause I'm rich, but you can't have sex with me and request money from me for it.

The modern Japanese, under Takahina's scrutinized view, is that they are divided into 2 extremes. And a 3rd percentile in the balanced area.

1 the traditional and conservative type. Mainly influence from the older generation. The other is the open, fanatical type, mainly new age youngsters influenced from Western culture with added features of their own. Imagine US people to be at 80%, Japanese will be at 100%.

Let me just say about the 1st type, the older generation traditional view.

They are the ones who are anal and not letting freedom.



Owwww... so sweet... but...



"Son, you don't take over the shop as the Ramen Unker you're gonna be cooked with the soup! I'll freaking disown you!!! Look at my eyes they mean freaking business!!"

Or...

Imagine a son who doesn't want to become a doctor, yet his father forces and stressed him to become a doctor. What do you get? A stressful society.



"Look at me... I'm stress."

Why Japan is such a stressful society is contributed by mainly 2 things, 1 I believe is the naturally fast paced society of Japan, 2nd is the mentality of this traditional family. Why so many people in Japan commit suicide, be it students who can't cope with the expectations of life, or old man who are abandoned by family for being useless, has gotta to with 1 nature of their traditional pride and nature. Survival of the fittest is very evident in Japan. (Another place I know with an even higher rate of committing suicide is Hong Kong)

If you think Singapore is stress, wait till you go to Japan. You think you can handle their society?

Pt number 2, the other part of the picture: The freaking open people.

Ok, maybe it's a bit wrong to call them open. Should say "Open-minded". Casual sex, posting pictures, whatever you say it, they did it. The leading industry in sex toys and stuff, they seem to excel in it. I can truthfully say now that the US porn industry is losing out to Japan, in terms of quality, and quantity per square inch. (Meaning for the same amount of land-space and area and population, US pales in comparison) And believe me... when Japanese mean extreme, they are extreme.

It's never a coincidence that porn industry strives so well in a nation. It's the social thinking, be it due to monetary issues, or so much stress from studying that the girls need some "love", or whatever you have, something about the society made it soar into world history.

I dare to say most people around hadn't been to a Japanese club before, I also want to take a look for myself, see whether the Singapore clubbing culture is open, or just plain crude compared to Japan's. For all you know, maybe Takahina, who's approach towards clubbing is never initiative but sporting, could get some action or 2 in Japanese clubs, unlike Singapore clubs whereby girls just ignore Takahina... (Just you wait you singapore girls... just you wait...)

Ok, joking about that, but I dare to bet my ass off that Japanese clubs are more hyper and open than Singapore's. Being Open??? Yes.

So it's good, it shows a good reason for a guy to go over to Japan. Well of course if you don't mind your Japanese girlfriend licking another guy in front of you in the club go ahead. Or she may suddenly show you a DVD with the cover...

"Fantasy with 18 years old, 100 man straight ぶっかけ..."

Well, if you like that, and can handle it go ahead. I'm not saying that it's bad to be open-minded, but there should be a limit to open-mindedness while Japanese from my impression seems to be able to go the whole stretch. So the innocent image of any Japanese girls you have... could be fake. And believe me, not all Japanese girls are as beautiful as you think. Enter their society and see for yourself.



Ganguro, the weirdest species of female ever.

How about Japanese guys? Well, truth be told, I'm haven't heard or been able to dig out too much about them. Rape Club only gave a part of the picture of Japanese guys. But I have a weird gut feel that Japanese guys are less horny than the Singapore counterparts. But the possible lack and the feature of guy power in Japan is still very much around, as hinted by my Japanese School's teacher 福島 Sensei.

男尊女卑. In romanji Dan Son Jyo Hi. My teacher taught this phrase in Japanese with a slight tinch of anger and passion.

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But overall though, take what I wrote with a pinch of salt, after all Takahina has never really lived in Japan before. I believe elements of what I wrote exist, but still it shouldn't be that prevalent.

As i stated above, a 3rd percentile of the people should be living a normal live with a balance in between. But... people being people, how many appearance of a "normal lifestyle" hides a deep secret inside??

Look for yourself. :D


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Takahina may write more about Japanese and his personal opinion on them, when he has the mood and materials. Ready for part 3?

The Japanese Takahina part 1

True I like Japanese culture. After all my nickname Takahina "タカヒナ”, is Japanese.

I created this nickname when I first got into the culture of knowing more about Japanese pop, especially in the pop music like Ayumi Hamasaki, Do As Infinity in about 2000.



Ayumi Hamasaki when she was still young and before the so-called "plastic surgery" treatment.

Then came my craze into Japanese Anime and Manga like Love Hina, and I gradually know more about Japanese stuff like drama, and more artist like Matsu Takako.



One of my most favourite pic of Love Hina, not because it's all nude, but mainly because it's one of the most complete picture among the collections.



Matsu Takako, one of the first Japanese "goddess" that I have loved. First saw her in the JDrama "Hero" and started loving her since.

If you notice, Takahina comes from the merge of this 2 "favourites" at my time when my fanaticism is the highest.

Matsu TAKAko
Love Hina

And you get Takahina. So for those who wanted to know why I name myself Takahina, reason is such.

I love Japanese culture, 95% of my songs are Japanese songs, of the albums I have bought, only F.I.R is the non-Japanese group I have bought (and F.I.R had the influence of Do As Infinity in their music), of the many bands which I had played with, almost all of them played Japanese music together before, only 1 or 2 didn't.

You could say, yes my obessession with Japanese came from my fanboy roots, and I sought to understand more about Japanese culture and society.

Now that I'm older, I had understand much more about Japanese, along with Japanese culture and society, and yes I have to say my liking for Japanese has drop a great deal over the years. It's not just because recently I read about Issei Segawa the Cannibal, or because of this Rape Club thingy in Japan I have known about, no. I know about Rape Club a long time ago when I was "researching" about Japanese.

Rape Club

For those who had done my "Who knows Chong Woon Han the most" quiz, you would have realised despite my liking towards Japan, it's not the country whereby I'm the most "contented" to live in, I will never want to live there for long, on business trip, on holidays, for 2-5 years... maybe. But to set up a family there, to continue my life there, it's almost a no-no unless something really big happens to me which makes me change my mind.

The purpose of this post, is not to diss Japan or anything. Singapore in a sense has no right to say anything about Japanese, neither is Takahina anyone at all to say anything about Japan. Neither would I want to. But I do wanna tackle, on the ways people thought about Japan, the mis-conceptions which you guys see on media.

Firstly, let's just talk about Anime/Manga/Pop culture.

Japan's Pop culture is strong and independent, in that it can survive on itself. If I wanna be frank, Japan can remain so strong and remembered in the world right now, 60% would be due to it's pop culture, anime manga etc. 30% on it's porn industry, 10% on it's own personal industry.

And both fortunately and unfortunately, this pop culture is precisely the thing which influences and mis-influences youngsters about Japan. Anime/Manga/Games, they all create a following for Otakus and fanatics, people can go gaga over Morning Musume, Suzumiya Haruhi, or Gazette, just to state a few. People can play for hours and hours and hours, without sleeping/eating/whatever playing Final Fantasy. People can spend TONS AND TONS of money, on cosplaying.

All of this, are fine. They are part of the pop-culture in Japan and deserves it's own rightful place in Japan.

However, at the same time, this wave of influence, created this false image of Japanese almost similar to that of an Utopia. The freedom to pursue whatever you want, the freedom to be gothic/emo/punk/cute/pretty/model-like/anime-like etc etc. I mean, yes they do get the freedom to do so, but it doesn't ensure that you can become 1 too.

Going to Japan in a sense, doesn't ensure you get the freedom to do so.

Ok as a simple example, I can go to Japan with my band in Singapore, in hopes of getting big since Japanese people are relatively open with music, and accepting. You sure that's the case??

I'm sure tons of people have watched DMC (Detroit Metal City, not Destroy my Cock), and you should know how the main character "desired" music didn't get accepted or acknowledged...



"Amai... Amai Koibito..." --> I'll fucking stuff Durian in your mouth to stop you singing.

Of course his Lord Krauser status became damn big, but seriously is that what he wanted?? I'll leave that for you to find out.

The point is that Anime/Manga etc etc has created a false impression to our Singapore craving Japanessy that Japan is a freaking big land of opportunity... (Well it's bigger than Singapore that's true...) It created a false image that through pure hard work and stuff, you'll definitely make it. That's not always the case. Surely, dreams and goals are good. But to achieve it you need to work towards it, and not just DREAM about it. That's the false impression Singaporeans are getting, we aren't working towards it, we're just dreaming towards it. And even if we're working towards it we aren't working it in a correct way.

Let's say band for example, the example I know the most.

Band leader get bandmates, band creates original, band goes over to Japan to test their luck.

Their standard? Their strategy? Their aim? Did they think of these many factors in??

The fact remains that alot of Singaporean still remain very immature in their thinking that all things about Japan is good, just because of the image set by their entertainment industry. For all you know, maybe... JUST MAYBE, Aya Hirano managed to become so popular in Japan because she slept with her TV/anime producers?? I can't believe I'm saying this, but yeah, IT'S A POSSIBILITY. I mean, maybe she's stuck up? maybe she's a goddess in real person, YOU NEVER KNOW. For all you know The Rock of WWE may be feeling "why the fuck am I doing a Toothfairy show?!?!?! I will fucking people elbow (the rock's signature move) out the teeth of the kids that are supporting this movie!!!"

(Aya Hirano and Theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ROCK, I'm sorry if you do manage to read this, but it's for my fans. And there's no sense of defamation intended at you... Please understand)

Behind all the image the entertainment industry has set for you, it is an image!! Just like any other entertainment industry like WWE, US, Korean, Taiwan, China, they are all IMAGES, and shouldn't be rely entirely on as the gauge to how "good" a country is.

Simple, Singapore's image is a very clean and proper country to every country. But stay here long enough, and you'll realise behind the image that's a fucked up nature about it... Just like Japan and any other country in the world, and just like any other person in the world, we keep up an image and you'll only understand more about the person after knowing more about them, investigating more about them.

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Part 2 will be up in the next post around next week. Too tired to even think now. >_>

PS: This blogpost is done at 3.25am.

The Phoenix Down-less Takahina

How am I no life right now??

When in the past I can go out and...



Watch movie with my dear Stella.



Hanky Panky with my dear Benji.



Camwhore alone in the toilet with my dear China Phone.



Having a great jam with my dear bandmates...



Get groupshots with my dear Taka's. (There's Takabenben, Takasamsam, Takaweiwei, Takachinchin, Tatemocow)



Take group picture with my dear Yui.



Or take group picture with... MIIIIIIIIIIYAAAAAAAAAAAKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.....~~~~~



Or take solo pic with... TOMOMIIIIIIIIIIIIII~~~~~~~~...



Takahina who was once handsome and suave... has fallen to...



Going home and sleep like no one's business everyday.

This is...

The undead takahina. Using phoenix down on me will kill me seriously.

As I stated before in facebook, working plus study is like poison, eatin away at your soul slowly like



this critter poking me everyday 9999. Even if Takahina has as much life as Omega Mark (the strongest shit in FFXII), I'll still perish.

Fatigued has caught up with me once the previous tuesday. From then Takahina has recovered a bit, but still the tonberry is POKING me.

Anyways just an update.

My work at TNT as a part time data entry clerk, is not unenjoyable actually. It's a very typical work, just that it gets draining on you eventually. So you feel like shit after work everyday. Coupled with the fact I always sleep late, I'm asking for it la. (For example, this blogpost is written after work at 1am)

Few people there like Ah Sam (yes Takasamsam, you hav a competition for your name), Hee Fong jie, and a few other of the part timers and full timers, people there are friendly and helpful, so it's quite fine throughout. The only complain is that we're short handed and the business seems to be improving, meaning that we will suffer more.

You wanna know why when Economy is good, people earn more money??

Economy good = business good.

Business good = more work to do.

More work to do = more time spend to work.

More time spent to work = more hours paid.

So if I direct the whole bulk of what I summarised to my current situation. It kinda just means that the good economy produces a dying Takahina.

Yup. As Simple As That. Bullshit.

School's fun, job's nice. Sleep's not enough, FFXII is not getting completed. Takahina is getting fatter by the minute. Bah.

Doesn't mean I'll quit my job or school anytime. This life now is very fruitful (well in a sense), I'm heading towards the type of busy life I anticipated when I started uni, so yeah it's nice by all means. Just a drag though, as the social time spent with my buddhies, friends, families, brothers will be much lesser.

And if I do get a girlfriend? I will lose her cause I no time for her.

HUAT AR!!!!

The Family Financing Takahina

You know once, Benji told me 1 thing.

"Parents who failed to plan for their family financially are failed parents."

I don't know whether he stills remember that or not, whatever. But then at that point of time I was vehemently against that idea.

"Money shouldn't be a problem in the point of love."

Ah-huh. >_>

Now I think twice, money really is a problem.

Look at the prevailing family in Singapore now. Seriously out of the families in Singapore, 50% are well suited to lead a family, 30% are struggling to, 20% should just stay single.

Seriously.

I'm starting to see more eye in eye with Benji in that parents, before thinking of getting married, like FUCKING...

"I DO"

"I DO... NOT!"

Kinda matter.

Girls, don't tell me just a bit of hoaxing and a ring can get you in?

And once you get married, POP COMES THE WEASEL.



So how? get married? don't get married. Ok PAP this is like a wake up call to an answer as to why Singapore JUST REFUSE TO GET MARRIED.

HAR HAR HAR, ALL YOUR POLITICALLY BRILLIANT BRAINS CAN'T EVEN BE COMPARED TO 1 SINGLE TAKAHINA!!

Ok, let's not digress.

The very simple understanding is simply the cost in getting married.

Let me break it down for you.


1. Get Married

You need to pay for all the ceremonies, pictures, shit. Just that cost you a bomb. You think the red bomb you throw to others will offset? NOOOOOO..... TAN GU GU (Aunty Tan) ARRRR... The margin of profit is fucking negative.

Getting married will eventually means years of hong bao and more expenses like getting a HDB, getting this getting that getting alot other stuff. Cause getting married is almost equal to saying...

"yo Pa... Ma... I grow up le... no need to depend on you old folks le... I need to pay back your maturity funds le..."

Whereas your Pa and Ma will be "HUAT AR!! MATURE LIAO !! GOT $$ LIAO"



"Because I trust... in my son. You, can do it too." - Happy Uncle.


And what about Chinese New Year?? You'll feel like escaping back to Genting like my parents. After like 3 decades they bui tong liao, must escape liao.


2. Getting a family

So you think you can be childless after getting married? WO PUI!!

It's impossible, because your matured investors will DEMAND you to produce a toy for them as special gift, a.k.a your kid.

And unless you are a couple who doesn't love each other, I'm pretty sure sexual activities happen frequently. The probability of getting one child, regardless with condom or not, in the long run will be confirm a 1. A FUCKING 1, MEANS CONFIRM WILL HAVE.

Unless Jesus don't love you, a kid is confirmed.

So a family is pretty much confirmed. Where do you go from there?? Heh Heh Heh...


3. Providing for that kid which you didn't planned for.

I was that kid which my parents didn't planned for. That's why they are refusing my uni allowance fees. But never mind, I shall continue.

Having a kid means wat?

It means additional...

Medical fees (For both parents and kid, parents for getting overly stress, kids for getting even more stressed)



Education fees (You gotta love SparkleTOTs, btw right below my house there's a sparkletots WAITING FOR ME!!)

Growing up fees (You gotta like feed 1 more person now.)

Misc fees (Every kids gotta have somethings to play with/holidays to go to/girls to fuxck with, all these takes $$)

I mean even your kid's fucking money (as in literally FUCKING money) is from u.

You think its gonna be cheap?

I attended this talk once, about child's finance blah blah. It cost to like hundreds of thousands in total. 1 toto first prize may not be even be enough.

Setting up a family, needs financial planning, heck doing anything in life needs financial planning.

So Benji's words starts to haunt me... in that it's true. You need to have some finance in you, to be able to start a marriage.

And that is why Singaporeans don't get married. As simple as that. Money. You think the gov bit of Child Bonus Policy gotta work? If it works I tok my dick to solidify my future reluctance of getting a family.

Ok to be frank, I'll like to have a family. I'll be kidding myself if I said, "no... no family for me."

But I'll keep this in mind man. If you wanna be a good parent, be a well-off one first, at least be in the top 50% families, so you child don't suffer, being unable to do/learn/live stuff which they want to.

The Top 5 Most Influential People to Takahina in 2009! - Part 3

Ok, although it's a little late, 2009 is already over and 2010 (not 2012 Tian Wei and Ben) has just begun. Next day is the start of school, and I'm feeling freaking tired now at 2:36am. But never mind.... let me begin the number 1 of 2009.

To be frank, it's kind of a give away, machiam like how Barcelona seems to be sweeping away every cup they get in contact with. If Barca is in EPL, I can tell you no other teams would come close. They are kind of a league beyond now, and even Real Madrid can't get close to.

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No.1:



Of course this pic is of ultimate gayness. Especially brought about with Chin Han's smile being so vibrantly pretty and filled with happiness. (I love you too Chin han) So you see, we are so gay, I can't believe that we haven't fucked each other literally yet.

And to be frank with have tons of other photos, just check out Chong the Dinosaur and Friends and you'll know why.

Now then... ever notice, why it's named after "Chong" the dinosaur and friends?

Yes, the group in a sense is named after me. Cause in a sense I'm the one who brought them together.

Last year I mentioned them, heck I always mention them. Now check my facebook, is only them, no one else. Seriously makes one feel that you have no life. I mean, even Pang Shen has some other girls posting something in his page, or commenting in something about his post. Even if so, PANG SHEN is the authority in MH, that makes girls attracted to him.

I have been nurturing... I shouldn't use "I", I should use "we".

Truth be told, I had been tired and exhausting managing the group, organizing events so that everyone would be happy and to keep the group going on. I don't do this for other groups of my friends at all, only "Rurouni" which I'm still more affectionate to calling, since it's the first name it has got.

I had been having spasms of emo-ness at times, I have been limiting myself and ignoring "responsibilities" which I'm committed to for the group, because I wanted to let someone else take this job, or just share the burden with me. But I did it in a rather selfish way. I did it in a selfish, unresponsible manner in which to date scores no reasons for me to excuse myself.

At the peak of periods, I always sent sms to the group like...

"Today Free and Easy, no meet. Feel free to organize meetings among yourselves."

The fact is not I wanted out of the group, I would never want to be out of the group since they're kinda the only bunch of friends I truly trust with my life. I'm just lazy. Like fucking lazy, as in a pig lazy.

I didn't realised my actions were detrimental to the group. You could say I just wanted quit of the event coordinator role, without thinking through much. Even if I did so, someone else could have easily taken over the position of events coordinator like Twai-ster, Bento, Lim face and Talibai.

But the feel would be different, because I'm the founder of the group, I merged the group together, bringing in people from outside like Tian Wei and Samuel into my East View group. To date, the ultimate regulars of the group would consist of these 4, and including me, 5.

1 thing which I didn't expect, is for my introduction of Tian Wei and Samuel into the group to merge so beautifully well, and the group would only grow larger.

We've been through many things, like Gackt's first love and first puke, the many club session, the many lans sessions, all these brought about fun, laughter, peace and joy to everyone in the group. When we are fun, we are fun. When we need to be serious, we're still like a bunch of jokers, but that's all the fun there is to it right now.

That's what this group means to me now, it's for a lifetime and I fully understood that this year. Therefore my pivot role of events coordinator cannot disappear, cause if i'm gone, the group is gone, and I probably would emo myself to death.

The group consist of... (in terms of age)

Stars Ahn Jae Sung
Ben Yeo Lock Wei
Benjamin Seet Chong En
Malcolm Chong Woon Han
Stella Ng Shu Yu
Shion Wah Chin Han
Samuel Lim Wenjun
Chen Junrong
Woo Tian Wei

And it'll only grow larger. Trust me.

Everyone in this group is unique in their own way.
Everyone in this group is stubborn and prideful in their own way.
Despite that, this group is united in it's own way, and it'll be so all the way.



So long ago omg.



Seriously, have the guts to take the pic, den have the guts to tag it man. WTF!!!

And i have to say, Sam, you look totally identical to...



Just stop your grin... and a Yuna may come your way. If not a shoopuf will chiong you for revenge thanks to Jecht killing one of it's kind.

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The 5 most influential people to Takahina in 2009 - Part 2!

3rd on the list:



She's kinda here for the 3rd time I guess? I ever since I know her or something, every year she's in here, every year for kinda either the same, or for different reasons.

Miss Tan Shuqin, or Mrs... (I don't know her husband's surname)

Yup, she's married. Or engaged to be specific.

To answer the question on most people's mind who read the blog, what is she on my mind now?

She's definitely not my girlfriend.
She's definitely not my wife.

I will call her... 最收悉的陌生人。

Reason being, I'm holding a "put her away unless neccesary" policy. I don't pick up her calls whatsoever unless really needed. This is needed cause unless I do say, I dare bet the strings between me and her can't be broke, and she can't be a married lady if so.

I can't totally ignore her, cause if I do so, her trump card of committing suicide will pop up and I'll be totally screwed in that case, which I don't want to happen. Be it she's kidding, or not kidding, or half serious half boiled I have no idea, that thing in the slightest sense, cannot happen.

So why is she in the list this time round again?

Well, I have no idea. All I know is that during this year round, 25% of my troubles come from her, even school doesn't give me so much problems. That itself is influential.

It made me realized 1 thing about myself. Some feelings about me which I didn't want to admit. Somethings which I either had, or hadn't told anyone about.

There's still something between me and her, this very weird relationship which I don't want to tell her. This year I had an "official" relationship with her in which I declared that I have a girlfriend. In the past I didn't say it, but during that time I did and everyone knew, including my parents.

I don't know I'm being noble to her or not, neither do I know whether she gets me or not, but she has to understand that my intentions for her were never out of malice. She spends a huge amount of time in my mind, perhaps even more so than the number 1 in 2008 now.

So my hope for her is that she gets happiness and lives a happy life, something which I can't promise her now currently.

She could also be the reason now that I don't feel like getting into a relationship just yet.

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2nd on the list:



The band "Child's Play".

However if I wanna tone down specifically... it's...



Edwin Toh

Child's play is a milestone for me as I was first time, a leader. I may or may not be a good leader, that leaves to be answered by everyone in the group, which I think Haze will CONFIRM answer negatively, but other than that I hope I did a good job of it.

It made me understand, the ropes, and the ways in which a band should be managed and led. I believe these skills will lead me down continuously as I continue my life on, with my own business, with my own family, with my own life. And with Child's Play being somewhat a "serious" band as I initially planned, and it's downfall with the gradual dismissal of it after the only gig done by us, I realized the fragile nature of being in a team itself, and the commitment really needed by everyone, with the same dreams, for a team to progress forward.

Main lessons to learn for a band: To have the same commitment, to have the same goals, to understand the band's route and nature.

It doesn't matter what's your influence, what you know, how well you know it (well of course you need a basic knowledge of your own musical instruments), as long as the band is united, things can flow.

Then with Child's Play, I get Edwin as my keyboardist in a very lucky nature. It's thanks to Soft I get it.

Be it fate that I studied in the same primary school and in the same class as him, or we managed to click so well together in the band and personally, I'm grateful to him in many ways.

Firstly, Edwin is the one who managed to make the band work and function so well. His musical talents are vital to the band as I have always said before, and seriously he is the best keyboardist I have ever seen currently. And since he is 21, freaking young, I believe his road in life will be even more impressive and fruitful.

Secondly, Edwin sparked back my musical dreams. I got pretty occupied with work and stuff, and neglected my music dreams. He brought it back, when I work with him, I feel really happy, relaxed and at the same time creative. Musically, he helped me improved. In the past I was stuck in my drumming skills, whereby I didn't felt like jamming was improving me whatsoever, Edwin's playstyle and creativity in his music made me come back to the time whereby playing drums was fun. And playing with Child's Play in a whole made me really excited and perked. Unlike playing with EvE or any other bands I had been with, I thoroughly enjoyed my time with Child's Play.

Thirdly, Edwin being a budding musician, had a lot of contacts with him in the music industry. In a sense he was my lobang, whenever he needed a drummer, I would be in his contact list. I'm very honoured to say the least, because frankly although I won't say I'm a lousy drummer, there are tons of drummers out there better than me and I'm sure he knows some of them. However, he would use me for his music projects and gigs. In a sense, it made me feel hopeful, hopeful that I can be a musician on a similar caliber as him, and on a professional basis. I've learnt alot from the many sessions/recordings I had with him, and I cherish it.

Fourth, Edwin had a musical dream, and it influenced me. To set up a music industry in Singapore for budding talents, for youths, to manage them, to nurture them into the mainstream/music industry.

I did say before, that I wanted to be a successful business man. In what manner I do not know. In a sense you could say it's a dream which had no proper idea yet. But now I do have, and it's for the music industry. A talent/music management agency To nurture and develop this obscure industry in Singapore, and develop out the talents who failed to nurture their true potential. Be it this is for Singapore, for myself, or for anyone. I had a sense of belonging and I knew instantly,

"This is the final route and ending point which I know I want to reach."

I don't dare to have any lofty dreams, but for once I know, this is a dream I will want to fulfill.

And Edwin is the one who dawned on me, and exploded this feeling of dreams within me.

That's why he's number 2 on this list. And I doubt he'll ever know the effect he had caused on me. Perhaps both he and me, will work again in the future professionally. Who knows?

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Number 1 will be on the next post. :)

The 5 most influential people to Takahina in 2009 - Part 1

Here you go, this will be the list which I always make annually. No hard feelings to anyone not on this list, cause simply, this is a list in which how much a person can change me. To be frank most of the time it'll be people close to me, but then there could be exceptions like how Robert Kiyosaki's novel managed to change my perception towards money.

Without further ado...

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Number 5: My university friends.



The group is quite big actually... so I'll tone down the few to which I'm closer with.

The one 2nd from the left is Kasumi Chai.
The girl beside is Serene Lee.
The girl in pink is Manluo Guo.
The guy beside me on the right is Charles You.
The guy beside me on the left is Desmond Chan.
The girl on the right of Manluo is Justina Koh.
The girls beside Justina in black and white inners is Liting Neo.
To the right of Liting is Shuchen Yeo.

This is the standard group I kinda hang out frequently with now, although we kinda segregate further more in 3 branches, with Kasumi, Serene, Desmond and me together, Liting, Justina and Shuchen together, and Charles kinda jumps around the OG or even the whole lecture group. He's popular.

To be frank it's not until recently when I start to talk more with the liting, shuchen, justina group, A.k.a the cheerleader group. They are a fun loving bunch.

And of course there's tons of rumors surrounding me and Kasumi. In fact rumors are flying between me and Serene and Manluo too. So it's kinda like... whatever.

These people here, are what makes university fun. To the extend there was a point of time in life I like school, even though it's demonic timing of 8.30am everyday. Of course I experience more in life thanks to them, even though we're still not that close yet... as in will like always hang out, but we're pretty pretty close I guess. Desmond has been with me since JC, so it's even better.

I used to hate studying, even though NS made me changed that viewpoint. After I enter university, I still didn't really like it as much. I appreciate studying, but I didn't like the notion of needing to study for the sake of paper. Friends make studying and going to a place fun, and they made it fun for me, so it's like the 2nd part of my this year in university is much more fun.

Thanks for making my uni fun guys. :)

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Number 4: Alan Dawa Zhuoma



To be frank, I was hesitant in putting Alan in this list. Cause to be frank, I won't say Alan affected my person a lot. She's just a Tibetan Singer from China who goes to Japan under Avextrax to further her singing career.

She's talented alright.

But why do I put her in my list?

Actually, I have heard about her from like mid year this year. Grew addicted to her even, and started looking for her stuff in Youtube, to the extent she managed to kick down Matsu Takako 1 rank from my idol ranking. So currently, my idol ranking is...

1. Perfume
2. Alan Dawa Zhuoma
3. Matsu Takako
4. Tokyo Jihen
5. Do As Infinity
6. Ayumi Hamasaki
7. Utada Hikaru
8. F.I.R
9. Shibasaki Kou

Perfume being Perfume, will be there. :)

I searched up a lot about Alan, knew about her history, know about her stuff. And her music... I like a lot.

Unlike Perfume, Alan's music doesn't bring you out of this world, Alan's music blows you away with her voice. I refuse to admit she's similar or inferior to Yuna Ito like what Sam said, cause they use different techniques in singing and you can tell. Alan's voice is more crisp and sharp, plus her Tibetan wail can push her up and of higher key than Yuna Ito's or any artist that I have known. Till now, I have never seen any artist able to hit Alan's key in Ashita e no Sanka clearly. If they did, they are using Opera singing technique which is different. I'm not saying Yuna Ito pales in comparison compared to Alan, but they are just different. If they are similar, I would have fallen in love with Yuna Ito long ago.

If I look through the most check video in youtube for me for this year, I dare to say Alan will be the highest. Somehow some of her music never grow old for me. Perfume's music however, did grow somewhat stale. Ok who am I kidding, there is no music that doesn't grow old, but Alan's song brought me through a period when I needed the feel she has, coupled with Perfume, both of them made me through this year.

The only thing I'm feeling a little sad though, is similar to Perfume, Alan is getting her big break and is getting bigger, albeit not as big as Perfume yet. Perfume's success was 1 hit phenomenon, Alan hasn't achieved that yet. She's still not an A-lister, but maybe close.

So why is she in this list? Cause I listen to her music so much, she has accompanied me through almost half of this year and adjusted my mood when I need to. And unlike Perfume, I'm still very much addicted to her stuff, plus she releases new stuff much faster than Perfume, this is the one thing which made her win over Perfume in a sense.

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Ok, that's all for now. Number 3 and 2 will be up on the next post.

The 2009 Takahina going 2010

Hokay...

It's been about and almost exactly a year since I last posted here. I seem to have a weird habit of returning her every once a year.

The True Takahina is huatness!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok la ok enough of boasting myself.

2009 is a seemingly uneventful year. Hmmm boy was I wrong. Quite a few things happened in 2009, especially in the 2nd half. It's like machiam a soccer match at first only a few things happened with maybe 1 or 2 yellow cards.

Then in the 2nd half you see tons and tons of red cards coupled with alot of goals. (GO ARSHAVIN!!!)

I won't say I'm reviving this blog again like last year. Cause my stump for writing has been apparent ever since I went over to LJ, the lan jiao place. Rightfully, I'm still a blogspot person, used to blogspot. And with Takako and Naru as the banner here... there's no way I'll leave this spot lar.

Conducively I don't have much to write. If I really wanna write, I'll write about how Chin Han has been feeling it about his family financial prob, how Ben, Chin Han, Me have differing views about money and lifestyle, how AVATAR actually fares, how the Singapore economy is growing too fast (YES, TOO FAST, YOU HEARD ME TOO FAST!).

With so much to write, and a perpetually tired body from the data entry work, I need some rest. So yeah sue me for not writing a proper post for close to a year here.

But then seriously, other than that time Sam telling me he still visits here once in a while, my guess is this blog is more or less like a ghost town.

I'll transport over the top 5 influential people into this blog. And at the same time, follow in Edwin's footsteps and write on an "event" list in which I feel has affected me someway or another. Sure to make some people pissed like what Takahina has always done.

Anyways, an early happy new year first, before I'll get onto the few final post of this year on this blog.

My other blog... hmmm view it if you want. A note though, it's meant to be an emo blog. yes an EMO BLOG, whereby I pour my feelings out like a 12years old girl truthfully and unhesistantingly.

To those who still knows and reads about this blog, cluedos to you. Takahina loves you.

The Revived Takahina

I suddenly decided to blog in this place because of dunno god knows wat reason.

It's new years eve, and I'm feeling so fucking bored I decided to revived TTT.

Fuck, I've been posting on Lan Jiao for quite sometime, and now I retrace back to this blog, i realised the link which I put down wasn't working! Which is like holy fuck shit cause tis sucks.

Anyways, it's http://takahina.livejournal.com

Fucking piece of shit.

Anyways, I was like loitering around computer and the net work. Watching perfume, youtube, blogs and stumbled upon Michi's blog. I don't care if she reads this, in fact I think she has even forgotten who the fuck I am.

So, it goes like eh some cool shit. There's reviews and pics of babes clubbing and stuff.

Quite cool stuff..

But somehow the blogs reminds me of the so many clubbing/enjoying life girls blog. Which describes on their misadventures with fashion, food, clubs, holidays, bras, more food, furniture, IKEA, boyfriends, how guys like to treat them. etc etc etc.

Fuck shit.

Somehow it's quite nonsensical in a sense why do I even care? It's what girls like, somehow it's like Otaku's post like mine, putting up stuff on Perfume, bands, girls, emo, love life, more emo, life, future, studies.

Fucking hell..

And I think, it's kinda crappy. But that is what blogs are meant to be. Silly, crappy and totally no chim stuff to be included. If it's chim, it's not a blog, it's propaganda. So it's some dumb fuckshit to even talk about it now.

Anyways, this sucks. I just felt like ranting because I'm fucking full of angst now. I just wanna fucking hell kill and tear someone apart right now!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

OK, to do that, I have to play game.

"Step away Pa!!! I wanna play game! No more Taiwan Political shitty ass for you!"

The End of The True Takahina

Hi guys... hmmm guess this will be the last post on The True Takahina, cause I'll be switching over to Live Journal. More uses there, and privacy control is also better.

Just go to http://www.takahina.livejournal.com, confirm will find me de.

Well... so that's that.

Surveyed Takahina 1

Did some survey introduced by Benji, called the Handwriting survey. See for yourself how true it is to me :0


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Welcome Woon Han Chong, here is your handwriting analysis.

Woon Han is moderately outgoing. His emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, he can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. He has the ability to put himself into the other person's shoes.

Woon Han will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes he will be happy, the next day he might be sad. He has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because he is in between. Psychology calls Woon Han an ambivert. He understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, he will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." He doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing him to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to him. He puts himself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet he will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Woon Han is an expressive person. He outwardly shows his emotions. He may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Woon Han is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. He weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when he finally has to. He basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Woon Han doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Woon Han will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!

In reference to Woon Han's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Woon Han slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project.

He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Woon Han can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Woon Han is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Woon Han basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, his self-perception is better than average.

Woon Han has a tendency to put things off, Woon Han procrastinates. He sometimes pretends to be busy, so he will not have to do whatever he is putting off. He is often late to appointments or deadlines. This usually leads to a great amount of effort at the last minute to meet the deadline. Procrastination is an important factor as it relates to his output on the job or at school. Remember, Woon Han will put it off until later. Procrastination is easily overcome through a simple stroke adjustment in the handwriting.

Woon Han has a need to be in control of his own life. He is a strong individual that can control situations to his advantage. This person can take control of a situation. He likes control and has the ability to control people without getting them offended.

Woon Han is very self-sufficient. He is trying not to need anyone. He is capable of making it on his own. He probably wants and enjoys people, but he doesn't "need" them. He can be a loner.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Woon Han has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Woon Han fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Woon Han has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Woon Han seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Woon Han seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.

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Accurate or not??

Random Thoughts 4: ELZ

Heh Heh heh...

Good luck hor.

In like less than a week, EvE has changed to ELZ. Nice.

The Perfuming Takahina

I've always said in the past that I'm not an Otaku.

True, I'm a fanboy, I play games, I surf net, I youtube everyday.

But still I have outside life.

BUT, Today was different.

Lately everytime I reach home, and I have nothing to do. I do 1 thing. That is to survey on youtube on PERFUME...



Frankly, I'm a little obessed. Hmmm no I think I'm VERY obessed with them. In fact I dare to say that they have overtaken Takako's position in my heart. And that is very serious matter for Takahina. You see if Takako's position is overtaken... then Takahina will not be called Takahina... but maybe

PAFUMHINA.

And you won't see Takako's pic with Naru's pic but Perfume's Pic with Naru's pic as my border for The True Pafumhina.

That is very serious matter.



A Pic from their latest single Love the world.

Ever since I've started accidentally found Shuchishin on youtube, which then led me to find Perfume. I've grown addicted to their Polyrhythm. Then I start to search for their live performance, which I feel is better than their mv cause it shows one of their strong points, their dance.

The dancing is quite different from the usual boyband girlband stuff you see, 1 point is that it's very synchronized. You can tell their years of training in dancing. Their dancesteps aren't very difficult. But it's like the synchro between them which is amazing. And the chemistry formed by the 3 girls is extraordinary. I don't really see this in other bands like Morning Musume and Smap. It's more like... you feel the relationship between the girls and the hardship they have grown through to get it.

True their singing aren't that impressive, at least can pass average standards la hor. But since the genre they're doing is "Near Future Techno Pop", or just call it technopop la. Their singing can be compensated by the techno element. If really wanna compare, Takako or any of the more professional singers can beat them hands down.

Next is their music... I never thought I'll like techno. But theirs sound different. It actually sounds...

nice. I don't know how to really explain much about their music. But it's refreshing and quite addictive actually.

OMG.

Here's the introduction video which made me know more about them. And kinda the final thing to make me solidly like them.






The last part when A~chan cried after their first big successful concert, was a very touching moment for me, and I guess for anyone who is trying to make it big but not having any success. It kinda gave me the feel that...

"Yeah, this is the type of feel... the type of happiness which can touch you. The type of experience of obtaining the final success that you can only get through after years of hardship. The moment when it's not shameful to cry in front of a big crowd, cause it's your biggest moment."

This type of happiness and touching moments, I feel is different from like success in business or wealth or getting together with someone you like. It's something which I think can only be achieved with your fans, hardship and many many years of effort that you put into. Music I believe is the only way you can get it.

Acting, getting an award and crying for it. Is different. Almost the same but different.

Music, you need not get award or some platinum records. But all you need is fans, and people who like your music, people who call out your name when you perform in front of them. People who feel touched with you when you cry on the stage. It's only possible I believe, through music.

And that is what I believe has made Perfume climbed over Takako's position. Their years of hardship which led to success. Something which I hope I can achieve as well.

And of course.

Perfume is cute. :p

Nocchi is beautiful and cool. With that aura.
A~chan is simply cute... too cute. And her entics in variety shows are too funny.
Kashiyuka has that icy beauty and yet another form of cuteness.



PERFUME!!

Keep on a lookout for the blog's picture above...

It could be changed anytime soon........

The Re-Furnishing Takahina

Today, I finally managed to break down a bulk of my books, files from my old room down to my new room. Then went through a lot a lot of stuff which I wrote before in the past, such as my econs essay, Gp essay, maths paper and even a Chinese Compo.

All the mindmaps, compo, outlines, focus, blah blah made me laugh and recall many things which I had done in the past.

My JC life wasn't bad. Not exciting, not angsty, not painful. Just normally normal.

Then I thought through a lot of the stuff which I went through particularly in the mental side.

I read through some of my essays, and I realised on how pesismistic I was in the past. Actually, I think I still am but then I changed a lot from before.

For example one thing I wrote about Education,

"Students are mainly concerned about their studies and the future prospects in which it'll give them. Moral education and civil education aren't really in their agenda of studying and the education system only serves to prove so with Civics and Moral Education being thrown as almost being redundant nowadays by students and parents alike. Teacher could only be half hearted in teaching such."

My thinking has changed somewhat a little. But still didn't divert too far.

My angst and fury with the society was at it's peak during the JC years. Now I can only look over it and laugh. Maybe it's cause I have given up in my personal effort of trying to get people to change.

All I need is for myself to change. That'll be enough.

I relook at myself now. What has differed? Actually quite a lot.

I'm more daring now.
I'm more optimistic... albeit just a little.
I'm more confident now.
I have an aim in life.
I don't feel anger or emotions towards the society, only pity.
I don't care about what other people says, I do what I like.
I'm not as conservative as before.
I'm still as emo as ever. Maybe even more.

Life has gotten a little more interesting don't you think?

However, I think more too now. About my future. I don't think I'm self centered now as before. Love and Romance can wait, for me they are the main factors of my emo-ness which still comes on a regular basis that is rather frequent and dependant on certain people in my life. Working in NS is second.

My future, my dreams.

I have my dreams, but to do that I have to secure my future. I was self centered enough in the past to think that dreams and future can be one. Reality is starting to prove me wrong and I think I'm mature enough to be aware of that.

I just discussed a lot on "future" with someone who helped in the current design of my room. And I gained quite a lot of insights.

I'll be freaking rich in the future. And my dreams will be fulfilled.

Looks like not only my room got re-furnished.

I got re-furnished nicely as well.

Random Thoughts 3: Money

I think.

I need more money.

No, not, think. It's:

"I need money."

Every month I will owe people money towards the end. Bah, hate it. And I keep on pondering where I spend it on... I realised.

I don't know.

WTF.

Now Matsu Takako's new cd is out, cost $70+. I DEFINITELY NEED MONEY.

Maybe there should be a Takahina's Charity Fund. Yeah.

Random Thought 2: 羞恥心

I don't know. But I have a sense of hair standing while I'm watching this video. Imagine Superband, a band performing this. HOMG.

I'll really love the band who play this in Superband, for all you know I think I'll make my first phone call donation to that band in Superband.

Then there's Perfume.



Whom I feel, is a much better dance band. At least the music doesn't make your hair stand and screams of Power Ranger. And Perfume has been out there for quite some time. Not bad. See their live and it's just all rehearsed, really damn amazing and scary at the same time. And electropop, it's the first time I heard something like this. HOMG. Really not too bad. And their music is quite nice.

But when Perfume has a Sense of Shame...



Jin Seiiiii

Jin Seiiiii

Jin Seiiii~~~~

Shuuu Chiiii Siiinnn Mote!!
Shuuu Chiiii Siiinnn Mote!!
Shuuu Chiiii Siiinnn Moteee~

Don't Mind Don't Mind Don't Mind Don't Mind, ore tachi wa...

zomg...

The Story Telling Takahina

Takahina today... have a story to tell. At the same time, would like readers to actually ponder about it.

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*All names are anonymous and have no link to whoever whatsoever*



Taka is a very average youngster. He spends average and most of the time, fully spends up his whole pay which comes monthly. He doesn't earn much, just enough to support himself and his girlfriend, Saeko who loves him very much.

However, Taka wants more. Taka has a secret. Taka doesn't really love Saeko as much, he does like Seako, but probably not as much as what Saeko thinks. The problem about Saeko is that she resides in a lower caste, CASTE 1. Meaning she has much lower education level, many family problems, many financial problems while Taka is in CASTE 2. A very naive girl one could say. She trust Taka very much but at the same time, she knows that Taka could leave anytime. But still, she tries her very best in the relationship. She knows due to the caste level, the society could never accept their relationship, and maybe even Taka himself will eventually be unable to accept it.

But anyways, it doesn't matter that much to Taka. Cause Taka is feeling alright with her now. Taka's focus isn't on Saeko, but more on how to advance to the higher level caste, like CASTE 3 and CASTE 4. Taka knows that to be able to enter the realm of the higher caste, he needs money. He needs power. Also, the girl of Taka's dreams, Ayako resides in probably CASTE 3 or CASTE 4 cause he seldoms get to see anyone of such stature. Intelligent, highly educated, gorgeous and definitely high in maintenance.

Now enter Takasuke, another person who is somewhat related to Taka. He frequently meets Taka and have discussions about the future.

Takasuke is one on the higher caste, CASTE 3. Naturally he wishes to go up to CASTE 4 and is willing to bring Taka along with him. He also has problems.

Takasuke is a little on the opposite side of Taka. Takasuke doesn't really want girls like Ayako, of course he doesn't mind, but he just wants a relationship similiar to that of Saeko and Taka. A girl's full attention and love. He has got too many relationships but it all just ended with the girl liking him for his caste level.

On this faithful day, Taka and Takasuke discussed on Ayako.

Is it that girls on a higher caste like Ayako somehow put lesser emphasis on the relationship itself and prefer to go for caste level?

Is it that girls on a lower caste like Saeko are able to devote fully on the thought of romance rather than caste level?

Is it that guys who are on the lower caste like Taka goes for girls of higher caste?

Is it that guys like Takasuke who resides in higher caste, goes for the purity of relationship? Rather than higher caste girls like Ayako?

Taka and Takasuke got depressed.

Somehow it seems that no matter what, the way through everything is still obtaining a higher caste.

"Best is getting a CASTE 4" Taka says. "A CASTE 4 means not needing to worry about anything financially. All you crave for is just looking for love, and intelligent presentable girls like Ayako."

"Wrong!" Takasuke says. "So what if you're at CASTE 4? The girls whom flocks to you are those without real love. They love you for your money. There is no true relationship. Girls like Saeko are like super big diamond gems in the higher caste."

"But if you don't like the girl? Then how? What if you only like girls in the higher caste?" Taka rebutts.

However, Takasuke attacks back rather irritatingly, "Many is just a false front, Ayako will eventually flock to another guy who is like in CASTE 5 or even CASTE 6. They can't be satisfied and have no love whatsoever."

Taka by this time, is rather disappointed to hear such stuff. He thought, is it true that Ayako is such a person? Is money really that important?

Takasuke, noticing that change of expression in Taka, tries to comfort him, "Taka you see, this world is messy, what the lower caste craves for is in the higher caste, but what the higher caste craves for is in the lower caste."

Taka however, still finds it unreasonable.

At this junction however, Saeko suddenly called Taka. Taka, instead of picking up the call, just shuts it off.

"What's that for?" Takasuke asked.

"I don't know... my mind is in a state of mess now. Should I continue to strive for Ayako, or stick onto Saeko... someone whom I won't like for long?"

Takasuke then replied, "Continue to go for CASTE 3, I believe you can do it. But ignore Ayako."

"But I can't! I love her so much!" Taka snaps back.

"You have Saeko! What the hell are you thinking about?!" Takasuke shouts back.

"ARGH I DON'T KNOW!!"

What should Taka do? At the same time what should Takasuke do? Saeko and Ayako, exactly what is so different about them that makes Taka feels so frustrated?

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*End of Story*

Ponder about it guys. :)

Random Thought 1: War

Hmmm suddenly had a touch of inspire coming to me.

What if Singapore had a war.

Which side would you join? Singapore or the opposition?

Now I suddenly ponder on it... and I think..

Hmmmmm....

You?